The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I know I have a hp and that I am guided and cared for. That often doesnt' stop me from taking the reigns and doing things on my own. I don't fully trust. It has been a long road.
Recently I had the news that I was going to have to move. My business is in my home and the layout of the house makes a large difference to the effective running of my business and stress level. I was very upset at hearing this. I immediately started searching for the right place to live. I don't own this particular house and it was selling. I have reasons for not buying right now.
I went and saw a place that was very good. It would have worked quite nicely, but I had anxiety and a sick to my stomach feeling every time I talked with the owner. I talked to my A who is once again working a program, and told him I think I need to listen to my hp who is telling me something. He was how I have always been and wanted us to take the reins. I let him know I am leaving this up to hp and am not going to think about it anymore as there is a plan and I just need to wait and see what it is.
In the morning, I received a call from the owner telling me he has found a way around selling and that we can continue to have the place until we decide to buy. At that point we can buy the house we are in.
I think this is the first time I have really put my trust in my hp and just left it at that. I love my HP.
Gracious!! That is exactly how I am aware HP works...Have a need; think it over and look at what my part in it is and could be and then turn it over and over and over and the HP outcome is much more acceptable than what I can do with it. Good for you and for your work on trust. ((((hugs))))
I so needed to hear that. I have been struggling turning things over to HP lately. Now I am reminded that I can. Thank you for that. Glad you don't have to move. Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
And I also needed the reminder... actually I ALWAYS need the reminder because in my experience, life just keeps rolling along and every day is another opportunity to do the same. Sometimes I too, am tempted to try and take the wheel, I'm like, "Thanks God, but this is REALLY REALLY important so I think I'm gonna take it from here!!" I can be a terrible backseat driver... my history of self-reliance is a joke, but..... like you, making progress, one day at at time. THANK YOU FOR THE FABULOUS SHARE! xx
-- Edited by glad lee on Sunday 27th of March 2011 09:23:05 AM
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
It is amazing what happens when we hand the reins over that aren't ours to begin with. :) I have another situation where I have been teetering back and forth if I should continue one of the volunteer commitments I currently have. In taking on this position, I deal with people that bring me stress via passive aggressive behavior and poor skills. I was going to continue, but hp has placed some things in my path that has let me know it is not healthy for me to do. I only have a month left ofmy commitment for this term. It is absolutely amazing how well my life goes when I hand it over. Lots of times I don't know what to hand over and what not to, as I struggle in that area. I have learned now just to say "I don't know if this is for me or you, so please make that apparent to me". If I listen I get my answer. I always thought it was my intuition all this time guiding me. My hp is my intuition.
