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I delivered the two pots Boo and Dickens to their new home. It was so nice there. Every animal is beautiful and happy. I was so impressed.
The pigs were not upset at all. I will mention I almost had a heart attack getting Boo in the car. Scared the pants off me. Trying to push a 250 pound pig into your back seat is not ez. Thankfully my neighbor nic came right over to help.
I knew this was going to be the hardest day. Three of my old babies are being put down this morn. It makes me so sick. I dug as much of a grave as I could. They will do the rest for me.
I think I am going to drive over to the hospital and go sit in the surgery waiting area. No one is there today. Just take a book. I am sure if anyone asked what I am doing they would understand.
someone mentioned a psych ward? I wonder how crazy you have to be to check in? No, I am still better than I was. This is a horrible thing to have to do.
Maybe i can go to rains in Portland. see good idea. just get on a train and take my pillow.
I wish we really were all at a meeting together. Would love a group hug.
Your friend,debilyn
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
As you have often said to me "I'm so happy you came here and shared". Same goes for you. Your words always comfort me in some way, built me up, encourage. I'm so happy to have you here, you're such an inspiration.
As Betty said, this will pass.. I'm sending you a cyber hug:)
You are doing great Debilyn. You are an inspiration to me too. I had a scare with my little furry friend Norbert nearly a month ago. I came home from work for lunch one day and found him laying in the front yard. He saw me and tried to walk to me, but was barely able to walk. To make a long story short he had been laying in the neighbors driveway and when she left for work she backed over him. His pelvis was broken in three places. I didn't know if he was going to survive or not. I had to put a cat down a few years ago after a pit bull attack, because the cat was just too hurt to heal. I had fear of the same thing happening.
The vet was pretty sure he would recover, but not sure to what degree, as far as mobility. I was instructed to "lock him in a cage" for 6 weeks to give things time to heal. I have a workshop and he has just completed 3 weeks and 2 days.
He is walking better every day and is nosing around the door when I go in to visit him, I think he will try to make a break for the outside world soon! I take that as a good sign.
Anyway, wish I could give you a real hug too, but just know I have been thinking about you and praying for you through the big changes you are experiencing right now.
Dear Debilyn - if I knew you I would come take you somewhere, anywhere or no where depending on you and just hang out and be a part of your day until you didn't need me anymore - I'm sorry for what you are going through.
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I am strong in the broken places. ~ Unknown
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another! ~ Anatole France
This is a hard day for you, but it's another step forward on the path to your new life.
This too shall pass. Better things lie ahead!
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Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could... Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. - Emerson
Hey D, It's me from over that big pond...just popped in and I saw your post. Oh my oh my...I remember when dear Walter was suffering and how touched I was...and now you have three of them to cope with losing and all at the same time.
HUGS honey, Camomile Tea, and pink fluffy slippers (you told me you had pink fluffy slippers). Keep your chin up. Keeping you in my prayers as I visualise you on your mountain whilst I am down here in the rain sodden valley of middle England.
Hold on,
With love, Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
I have had to put loved pets down, the one I remember the most was my big yellow loving cat, he loved me so much and I ran over him in the driveway, I couldn't believe I could have been so careless as not to watch him better, it still haunts me to this day.
I am sending you a long, long tight hug and thoughts of caring your way.
I ended up turning my tv full blast with orange ear plugs in. Had all six dogs up on my bed with me. We ate fake cheese and blueberries together.
Bless my neighbor/tenants hearts for helping me with this. They are so strong. I took money off their rent and gave them a chocolate pie.
Now I know they are at peace. No more hurting joints. My best boy Arn was off one leg and he was huge.
I have not been pigless since 1985.
Thank you so much for all your caring. I just could not talk to anyone. Had to stay here. But I tell ya, I want out of here up to my cabin so bad. I wish I could just pack up and go. But have to wait for the cash thing for keys. sigh.
I am going to get lots up there starting tuesday. Its things like my gliders, old milk can. important stuff.....My son is bringing wood in his van and putting my panels on top.
Just want out of here now this minute. thank you for all the hugs.
thanks for keeping me duct taped together. love,deb
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."