The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
It's been so hard for me to know just where to begin.
I had decided in December (I think) to begin going to Al-anon as hubby said he was going to begin AA meetingss. We were gone for a week of vacation, and a week after we returned our youngest son committed suicie at 23.
I was fortunate to find this site a few weeks ago and was so comforted by the support I received. Still, I found that I was not able to go to a face to face meeting, my own emotional 'stuff'.
Since that time I've seen a counselor who specializes in alcohol and substance abuse. He's now aware of the loss of our son and will be offering what he can in that direction as well.
Just like everyone else, my life is complicated by other issues. I'm trying to build a fledgling business which requires much of my time and attention. My other sons are grown men, one lives across country and I suspect that he has his own issues with alcohol. No surprise, he says 'not to worry'. My middle son lives locally, travels quite a lot for his own business which he is growing. He is gay and while he knows he is loved and supported by us, has never told most family. I worry that these concerns compounded by grief of losing his baby brother may lead to alcohol issues for him. We have talked about this - clearly it's not off the table.
My husband has been attending almost daily AA meetings for the past 2 weeks, for which I'm grateful. He's feeling more relaxed and fully supported. Thank goodness! Opening up a bit to others about his feelings is a huge change for him. I'm feeling grateful.
Last night we attended a combination meeting, I believe it's referred to as an open meeting. I have a lot to learn. It felt good and I am actively looking forward to attending al-anon meeting.
Again, I have much to learn and I am fully aware of that. But today, for this moment, I feel like we are moving forward. A bit at a time. That's enough for me this particular morning.
Sandy, I'd like to welcome you and start off by saying that your post shows amazing strength and courage. Thank you for sharing that with me (us all). I am sad you with about the loss of your son. I can only imagine the pain associated with such a loss. I'm glad you are here.
Thank you for sharing Sandy. I'm so sorry for your loss. And, like Rora said, you show strength and courage and I hope you continue to contribute and post here!
Thank you for your open and honest share. You touched me more then you know. My prayers instantly went out for you and your family. Please know you are in the right place and are always welcome.
