So I have a long drive to work every day and my son was with me.  I could tell from his body language (I am an expert in that department) that he was upset about having to stay at his step-dad's house and I really wanted to help get to the bottom of why.  I asked him about what goes on there, if his step dad (the father of my 8 year old) is bad to him or whats going on.  He tried not to, but he began to cry.  It all came out that when he is there he feels ignored.  This man is the man I divorced because he was a rage-aholic and not there at all for me emotionally or anything.  Well my son cried for a bit and I talked with him about how this man is.  I told him that I knew it was not an excuse, and that the man had a bad childhood, watching his own parents fight and scream and yell and so he carries with him a pain inside that he hides from by using the computer ALL the time or playing video games.  He was rageful to me, now I am gone so I don't know what he is rageful to.  I told my son that I know its not his problem to have to make a relationship with an adult work, and that when he has to stay there due to karate class (they take karate two nights a week an hour away from where I live now) that I will call at a certain time those nights so he has someone to talk to about his day.  Aparently this ex of mine doesn't talk to the kids at all about their days or anything!  No wonder when my 8 year old finally comes home to me he is so talkative and wants to play board games etc.  I have to be that parent that my ex is not, which I am pretty much anyway....
Yesterday was a big day.  It was a break through.  I told me older son again that I am planning to move for March 1st, April 1st the latest.  I have to get closer to where they live, and I know that I have some good plans for this.  My best friend is now a real estate agent and can help me find a place and get the landlord to let me move in without great credit.  I work at a newspaper and have access to all the classified ads before the even get published so there is that too. 
I know that things are getting better and this talk with my son went so well.  I felt I was able to give him something to work with while we wait.  Also, I told him that he needs to get out whatever is bothering him, because if he doesn't, it will sit inside of him and fester and he will feel awful inside as well.  I told him even if he doesn't want to talk to me, he can talk to his grandpa, his own dad, etc. 
Guess what, his body language changed after our talk, and he felt happier.  I am learning to share with my boys how to live better.  And more fully. 
My hp told me yesterday when I woke up (I listened for a message) that if I don't embrace PEACE, that I will die just like the rest of the people who didn't embrace peace before me... die unhappy and unpeaceful.  Its there.  I can have the change if I want it and I am being the change that I want to see in the world. 
I know this is long, but I wanted to let you all know, it works when we work it...  it really does.  Good days or bad, I can change me and accept me and love me...  and when I do that, it feeds into others to the nth degree....