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Debilyn


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HP hangs onto me tight.

I met this wonderful lady who adopted my littlest Shi Tzu/Poo. The gal has a huge place and two other ones she rescued. Her grandaughter fell in love with little Jellyhead.

Jelly LOVES them too. She sleeps in their bed with them

The gal has money so Jelly won't want for anything.
Rescue group is taking the last 5 old girl cats! They will have a VERY nice home on 10 acres, but have their own cat house. (c:

So found a place for everyone.

I found a neat lady who used to have a huge avairy in Ca. She has a nice little house, nice stuff. She is 71. Her husband left, she had to place all her birds. This was years ago.

I decided to have my dear ReebaJo go live with her. My cabin is one big chew toy for her. Plus there is no way to stop her from attacking the dogs there.

It will be horribly hard as it has been all along. BUT again, the animal will be fine, I just have to heal sometime.

I got stuff on my cabin walls and stuff put away. Its so nice. I only kept my nicest stuff. There's a neat shop here in town that sells stuff from Africa, India etc. I put expensive things on layaway, pay as I can. So have two nice wall hangings, a huge plant pot, and this neat thing of a lady sorta in a fetal position.

Keeping it simple.

Put my pretty shears up too. It felt so good up there, I was alone this time. I cannot tell you the serenity I feel when I am up there, not out of sorts at all!

HP knows me.

Have everything ready to fill my car again. Then there will just be the big stuff. THEN my daughter is going to help me dig up the plants I want to take, and bring my houseplants.

I would think I would be 100% out March 16. Will have my home ready, but here will have a chair, tv, matress etc. until I have to walk away with my dogs and two cats. And not look back. Just thinking I better have someone else driving.

Am so numb you guys. I find myself mad at AH's disease as I throw things away. EVery time an animal goes I lose it. Just let myself. I don't want to think about when they come get my pot pigs. ugh. I gotta take my old one with me if he does not check out before.

Not afraid anymore, just realized that. hmm.

Do I regret allowing the A back in my life? In some ways yes in others no. So they cancel out each other and it is just part of my herstory.

I am so glad to come here and read. There is so much energy here! So many people caring about others. Learning from each other. Helps me stay on my own path.

The brown dog is Jellyhead.

The black and white one is the one I kept of the Shi Tzu/Poos, Poppy or pop pop
Huggen yous, debilyn



-- Edited by Debilyn on Monday 7th of February 2011 05:44:00 PM

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Deb,
So glad to hear about the animals that have found good homes. And glad that you will be taking your dogs and two cats with you. This is a really difficult time for you, but you're doing great. Trust in HP, everyhting will work out in the end. Thanks for the update and keep on keeping us posted. (((((Debilyn)))))

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I am so proud of you Deb. I know how much this hurts and you are listening to HP following the plan as best you can. I know soon you will be all cozy in your new place just the way you want it. Hopefully with stories of visits to see how everyone is doing in their new homes. Many miracles, that is how I see you finding homes for your friends. I know my animals take on my personality and am pretty sure yours have taken on your personality. This means they will love and bring so much joy to the people who needed them in their lives, HP and you made that happen. I am so proud of you.
Big hugs, prayers and wishes.
Jen

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Dear Deb 

hug

 Thank you so much for sharing this uplifting, difficult journey with us.  You are truly  an inspiration and a wonderful example of How Al non Works  We do not always get what we want but HP does give us great power to carry on.

I am so glad that all the animals are finding good homes, and  love hearing about your new Cabin 

It will be lovely.

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Keep teaching us how to do it Deb...Letting go for me is soooo hard.  Hate thinking
about it and don't think about it too often because of that.   (((((hugs))))) smile

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I am right there with you Debilyn, the lumps in my throat the aha moments from your shares, you are a true example of your faith and beliefs, and I am feeling that your in the final stretch now, over halfway, they say that to keep it you have to give it away, well I think you have' keeps with credit, one foot infront of the other Debs, your amazing.

Katy
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(((Debilyn))) As I sit here with tears in my eyes reading your post, I just have to say that I am SO proud of you and how you are handling everything. Your strength is amazing.  You have made some very hard decisions these past months and I can't amagine how hard it must have been to find such awesome homes for your pets. 

There is a saying that "everything happens for a reason" but sometimes the lessons are SO HARD... I think you having anger towards alcoholism is pretty normal... I would be surprised if you weren't angry and questioning... Thank you for your post... Peace.

P.S. If your HP brings you to it.... He will bring you through it...

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