The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Someone posted earlier today, or yesterday, that once we attend a face-to-face meeting, and we start to absorb the program like a sponge, that we should not let the sponge dry out.
So, so true. I am a dried up crusty old sponge. I have been on an intermittent backslide for weeks now, and it culminated in some major ugliness on Wednesday. I'm working hard to be kind and gentle with myself, and to detach.
And just as importantly, I'm getting myself to the next F2F meeting I can: over lunch on Monday.
I am going to live one moment at a time this weekend, and focus on the present and the things I can control. I am going to focus on not isolating myself. I am going to work to form friendships that I value and that lift me up. And I am going to love myself, because I am a child of my higher power, and I deserve to be loved.
I will do that with you too!! Already did the meeting this morning and the prayer and meditation and the reflection on what it is that I haven't been doing for the same reasons I use to not do it in the past. Practiced courage to change, kept it simple mean't what I said and didn't say it mean and a buncha other things that result in positive change. Okay next step: I am going to live one moment at a time this weekend, and focus on the present and the things I can control. I am going to focus on not isolating myself. I am going to work to form friendships that I value and that lift me up. And I am going to love myself, because I am a child of my higher power, and I deserve to be loved.
I can really relate to how I start to feel when I haven't been soaking up the program for a while. I get sqirrely, agitated, grouchy, irritable, etc. This is why at the VERY least I try to hit at least one meeting a week.