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to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
It is so comforting to come here and realize how I'm not the crazy or awful one. My ex-boyfriend always told me our relationship problems where all my fault and that I was crazy. The verbal abuse, the lies, the mindgames, etc. literally drove me until I hit my bottom emotionally. I knew he had an addiction to alcohol and drugs but I didn't realize how the addiction played into their personality. Reading the stories here is eye-opening. It is like how our relationship was exactly. We recently broke-up because he said he had had it with the fighting and it was all my fault. I now realize he more than likely wanted to continue with his addiction and was tired of having to put up with me lecturing to him and him hiding everything from me. He lied to me all the time. Even when I caught him cheating several times when we were together he would deny it then would say well when you dig for gold you will eventually find some. Then he said he cheated because we weren't doing good for the past couple of months. When I told him, it didn't seem like we were having problems since you were still texting me amd calling telling me you loved me and wanted to spend your life with me. He didn't say anything after that. I'm still angry but I'm glad I'm no longer believing his lies and he is out of my life.
I love your log in name. It is so good that you have found MIP and can relate to the postings. It is obvious from your readings that You received a powerful awareness of the disease of alcoholism and how it infects all it surrounds.
Please keep coming back andsharing. Alanon face to face meetings can be found in your community and will offer you the tools you deserve to recover.
It is important to break the isolation, connect with others who are walking the same road, focus on ourselves and live one day at a time. We also learn to leave the past in the past and stop blaming or criticising ourselves and others.
Stories like yours again emphasize the importance of "Miracles In Progress" to members worldwide. When we are trapped in the grasp of the disease convienced we are the crazy one, it's refreshing to come here and read about other members experience, strenght, and hope and know we are not alone anymore.
Thanks for your post. It will help others who are going through what you and all of us have gone through.
Consider attending Al-Anon meetings. Your ex-boyfriend is out of your life, but your life has been effected. You need to heal the scars addiction has caused, and be less likely to jump from the frying pan into the fire in your next relationship. It happens more often than not.
HUGS, RLC
-- Edited by RLC on Monday 31st of January 2011 06:14:29 PM
I love your log in name. It is so good that you have found MIP and can relate to the postings. It is obvious from your readings that You received a powerful awareness of the disease of alcoholism and how it infects all it surrounds.
Please keep coming back andsharing. Alanon face to face meetings can be found in your community and will offer you the tools you deserve to recover.
It is important to break the isolation, connect with others who are walking the same road, focus on ourselves and live one day at a time. We also learn to leave the past in the past and stop blaming or criticising ourselves and others.
It is so comforting to come here and realize how I'm not the crazy or awful one. My ex-boyfriend always told me our relationship problems where all my fault and that I was crazy. The verbal abuse, the lies, the mindgames, etc. literally drove me until I hit my bottom emotionally. I knew he had an addiction to alcohol and drugs but I didn't realize how the addiction played into their personality. Reading the stories here is eye-opening. It is like how our relationship was exactly. We recently broke-up because he said he had had it with the fighting and it was all my fault. I now realize he more than likely wanted to continue with his addiction and was tired of having to put up with me lecturing to him and him hiding everything from me. He lied to me all the time. Even when I caught him cheating several times when we were together he would deny it then would say well when you dig for gold you will eventually find some. Then he said he cheated because we weren't doing good for the past couple of months. When I told him, it didn't seem like we were having problems since you were still texting me amd calling telling me you loved me and wanted to spend your life with me. He didn't say anything after that. I'm still angry but I'm glad I'm no longer believing his lies and he is out of my life.
