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Ya Know, Its Funny how just when you think Your Day Couldn't get any worse, you wake up and Realize it really isn't that bad...lol...
I am So Grateful for a Program that Allows me to see such things, I remember when I was Younger and would have a Bad day over just about "Any" thing that didn't go "My Way"...
Now this week hasn't been one of those that makes me want to sing or anything, however, My boy came home Sick from school on Monday, and has been on the couch since, he had a fever up to 103, and Thank God above it has broke for now, and he is feeling better today, he even got up and started moving around which for him, means he is feeling better... So I kept him home yesterday, and today I would have as well, but we got Snow, so it kept him home anyway :)
But today, I started to go thru some things in my office, things that "Normally" would stress me completely out, and keep me constant aggravation, and for some reason, I read my Daily's, did some much needed meditation, and Wahhh Lahhhh .... The Stress Left, My Head Cleared, and now... Even with the Snow, I"m Feeling OK...
Now don't get me wrong, I am STILL Prayin for Spring :) But for me... "Winter Hater" to say I am Having a Good Day and there is snow still coming down, is a Huge Step for me... I don't do well without SunShine, but Just knowing that HP is Here, and that my Boy is OK... Makes Me OK...
I know that I could never have Found this kind of LIfe, had it not been for this program, and the people that go that extra mile to help me see thru the Fog... The ESH that I read, and the love that I am Giving Unconditionally by the Family I have met while being in Al-Anon, is so much more a Blessing then I could ever explain...
In 2wks I go for my Surgery, and the week before I go, I have doctor appts, for me & my Son to keep me busy and keep it off my mind for the most part... I'm still a Little uneasy with the Whole getting Knocked out thing, but that is mainly because I just don't know what to expect, and well... When They Knock Me Out... I then am Powerless... And that is what I am trying to focus on, Giving it to God to handle, since I wont be able to "Control" it either way... :0)
But Just having this Calm, is something I am Not Use too...But I am Sooo Very Much NOT Complaining about it :) I look around at my life, and I can see that tho there are Ruff Stops, tho there are Hurdles to Overcome, I do So Very Much feel like I am Steppin Up and handling them so much better then I did, or Would have 2 years ago...
When I took the time to Pull back from my Program a Touch, and Just let it WORK, while I worked it on the Inside...I felt Less Pressure, yet, still I can see where I have improved and also where I have more work to do... So Sorry I haven't been around ALOT, but really I am, I am just being one of those "Lurkers" sucking up the ESH from all of you :) and for ALL of YOU... I am Most Grateful... For you Love, Understanding, Compassion, Caring, and Yes... Your ESH :)
So today I say Thank You Yet Again ... All Of You ... For allowing me to Grow, and Giving me the time to Figure it out for myself... I am forever Grateful...
