Yesterday I found out that my mom has elevated liver enzymes.  She didn't want to tell anyone in the family about it (she's still in denial that everyone knows she drinks and has known for the last 20 years).  My stepfather told me, though - he told me she went to see a new doctor to get her high blood pressure meds because the old doctor wanted to run a bunch of tests on her and she didn't want the tests.  Guess the new doc ran the same tests.  My stepfather told me that "they" (he and my mom) were making some decisions about what to do next.  I said nothing other than I was sorry to hear about that.

When I hung up the phone, I told my AH.  He said that maybe that was a wake up call and she'd go back to AA.  She went for 2 years in there somewhere, but went back out to do alcohol market research.  I told my AH that I wasn't holding my breath.  Many people have been told to stop drinking and have kept right on.  I have no expectation that my mom will just decide to quit.

I was so very encouraged that I could practice the program.  While I am very sorry to hear that my mom isn't well, a) it's not a surprise ... 20 years of drinking until passing out every night can't be good for you, and b) there isn't anything I can do.  I am happy that I did not become immobilized by fear and projection, which is what I have done at all crises involving the active alcoholics in my life in the past. 

I'm praying that HP's will can be done in both my mom's life and my stepfather's.  My stepfather doesn't go to Alanon, but I really wish he would.  He still believes that he can make decisions for her, take care of her, and control what she does.  I wish he could find relief from that, but my sponsor says I cannot nag him about Alanon anymore than I can nag my mom about AA.  The seed has been planted - they know about the programs.  It's up to them to make choices to use them.

If anyone has any spare prayers today, pls send them my way.  Thanks, friends.