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well I drove my son to rehab tonight....a very wonderful friend came with me....I am so happy that he is there and of course I am pray that he gets well......Now my question....I know he was ready and is in the right place but I can't stop crying and I am so upset that I am actually vomiting and I don't understand why....This is what we want for him but I feel like I have lost him...I feel like I am grieving....what is wrong....
it could be a combination of things ,you know your son is in a safe place where he will get help , and u can finally relax our bodies know when its time to take care of us and this is it for you .. you have lived in chaos for so long that when u let go u dont know what to do with yourself .. relief , fear, exaustion * emotional ..cry til there are no more tears they heal . *hugs* I call this time How do you manage when there is no one left to manage>> as a wise woman told me - now dear you get a life !!!! thinking of you tonite . Louise
All that can be said is suggestions and maybe something will feel right.
My thought was reality hits us when we give them to the world. It is not just us feeling the pain of their addiction. Now it is real, he is in rehab for a horrible disease.
To me it is no different than taking someone to the hospital to get help. We are glad they are getting help. But it is still the unknown, still scarey!
This is your son, a very big part of you!You surely would rather it be you going there. Plus you have to leave him and do nothing.
It will get easier each day. No matter what happens he is getting help, he is learning.
Hope you take care of you, warm showers, soaking in the tub, warm tea, hot water bottle on your tummy, naps! I get lost in books. that helps.
Sending you hugs,debilyn
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