The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I've been having a rough time, feeling like I'm just barely hanging on in life. All my responsibilities are weighing on me, and combined with some minor but upsetting health issues, I have regressed into quite a pity party. It all came to a head today when I allowed my obsessiveness to rear its ugly head with respect to my AH. Tonight I think I'm doing a better job maintaining some detachment and perspective, but I'm also feeling terribly lonely (it's just me and the baby, with AH working out of town and my daughters with their dad).
I have found myself reaching out to friends over the last week, and a little discouraged that most of my loved ones are busy with the holidays and not able to spend a lot of time talking or messaging with me. But I'm also trying to keep myself from taking it personally.
Thanks to you all for your presence in my life during 2010. My life is so much better today than it was 3 months ago thanks in part to all of you and Al Anon.
Time for me to get back to working my program and call an end to my pity party.
This time of year is hard for everyone. Be gentle with yourself. Please , Read your courage to change for today and Know that today in the New Year is a blank page to write all the positive and constructive tools on. This entire porgram is a process and it is all progress not perfection
