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Hey guys. This is the longest I have gone without posting since I have joined this site. And it's because I'm actually doing well. The struggles are not over, of course, but I'm starting to busy myself more. School is over and I did great on my finals because I had time to study, mostly because the lack of a boyfriend. I got a job and have been working for the past two weeks. I'm only a seasonal employee, along with 60 others, but there is one full time position available after the season. I got it. I have been going to parties, sleepovers, movies, concerts, and I even went on a date. (It was just with a friend, but it's still a milestone for me!) I can't help but think that my life has been better this past month than it has in the year I was so in love with and dating my ex A. I thought I was happy with him, but now I realize that I was just content with being "loved". It is so much more fulfilling to be happy by your own merrits and not from someone else's feelings. People have no control over the thoughts, feelings, and actions of others, but you can always control how you feel and what you do. It's really invigorating not having to call my ex every five minutes to make sure he's not using. I don't have to be his mother or babysitter any more. I just need to worry aboput me. After all, I am only 20! Life is pretty much great right now. My best friend is getting married and I'm her Maid of Honor, I have never been closer to my family, and I think I am finally in a pretty healthy mental place. I still have a long way to go though. I am still very codependant and have recently developed an awkward bubble around guys that I have never had before. I am still completely in love with my ex, but I think about him less now. It's turned from an obsession to a slight dwelling. But it gets better every day. Thank you all for your support and love. It has helped more than you know. Have a great night and a wonderful holiday. :)
That is great Brookie, it does work when we work it. I too have not come on as often, because I am feeling so well. I do know its good to share when you are well, so thank you for your wonderful share! Congrats on getting the job! In this market, that is so awesome! Yeah for you! :)
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You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. -Buddha
The past has flown away. The coming month and year do not exsist. Ours only is the present's tiny point. -Mahmud Shabistanri
Great to hear things are better and going well for you! :) There is no sense worrying about them when they need to be worrying about themselves. There is nothing we can do for them. So we need to focus on what we can control...and that is ourselves.
