The material presented
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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
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When I began alanon and working on my codependency issues, I thought I would never be able to even for one minute stop obsessing over others/things. I realize now that this is my symptom of my sickness. Just as alcoholics or drug addicts use a substance to stop feeling, I use other people to stop feeling. Part of my self inventory on step 4 has shown me that I used other people and their stuff to cover up for my own pain. And do I have a lot of pain to cover up. I have so much to work on, but I am doing it! I know now, that I no longer have to sit around obsessing about my bf who might be out using drugs or drinking, I no longer have to put up with stuff from my dad or my step mother. I can make my own decisions! I am free and can transcend above the stuff and be me! I have choices and I don't have to see the world in black and white. The way I once thought and lived were survival mechanisms. I used saracasm as a defence mechanism. I still do sometimes, and I slip sometimes into my old ways, but I get sicker quicker and come back to my new ways. I am working it and working hard. Thanks all!
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You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. -Buddha
The past has flown away. The coming month and year do not exsist. Ours only is the present's tiny point. -Mahmud Shabistanri
Good for you! Isn't it interesting that when we learn to use the tools we have learned, we can really change our lives. I am very thankful that I found the program as well. Just a matter of sticking to it!
Thanks so much for this sunflower, I have started work tonight on step 4, and this has really helped, I can now see that when I was obsessing, it was to take my mind off me and what I was feeling, what a powerful revealation, thanks again.
Thank you all so very much! This board, alanon, HP and last but not least my sponsor, have all helped me so much! I work hard at it every day. I am a work in progress, a miracle, and I am a survivor and I am learning to accept and love me :) Happiness is an inside job. I have to work it and then it works :)
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You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. -Buddha
The past has flown away. The coming month and year do not exsist. Ours only is the present's tiny point. -Mahmud Shabistanri
