Put it behind you Rainbo and chalk it up to another experience. We have all done this. One great thing is that the very next moment we can change it. We can decide to do it differently.

Sometimes it turns out to be a benefit.

luv, Bettina

oh sweetie! It is ok, even when we do make a mistake or have a slip, one in which we do not take care of ourselves, u can see it is not a good place to be in, not what you want to do ~ slow down, say I will think about it and get back to you (in a day or a few minutes) and then stick to the time frame you create.  It is ok to say, let me check my schedule and see and think a few moinutes if this will be what you want/need to and/or not.

For me at this stage in program, it was a road map of sorts - bc I could see where my choice allowed me to feel worse and not better.  When u begin to make choices based on how it will leave you feeling in the end (self preservation and self protection) then it makes it easier to decline nicely.

I read for years and having formerly been in the beauty industry for 20 years... if I do have "bad news" or disapppointing news to share, I make sure I am fed and well rested and then I put on a nice make up (on my face) it is said that bad news is taken better from a beautiful face. lol 

In leiu of f2f contact, if it is over the phone and u feel pushed/pressured to jump and do what is asked, even if u really really want to do this thing - take time, say I will get back to you shortly (and think about it or check ur schedule or make sure u really want to and it wont disrupt the plans you already have in place for the day/time).

Slips allow us to re-evaluate what we want in our programs, this is a very postive learning experience here ~ another glorious opportunity for growth.

Dont allow anything, even you dear one, to "ruin" your day or any possibility, turn it over, surrender it and do the best you can now and for the next time.  Also, know ups and downs are a part of life too, it ebbs and flows.  Accept ur part in it and change what you can.  Let go (surrender) your control, wants, expectations of perfection and make those mistakes so u can keep growing & evolving.  It is about choices, it isnt personal.  Be kind to you and give you permission to not only take ur time to decide, to have more choices - and give you permission to make mistakes and be human.  Remember there is no perfect destination in life anyway, being honest and true to us and standing up for us in love and resepct - is the way to be in the process of coping.  Everything passes, this too will pass - do what will allow you to feeel better.  Those that genuinely like you, will like you anyway and they will respect your boundaries.  Respect is contagious.

I know I would always jump to the involvement bc I was the "hero, rescuer and martyr" and it is complusive of us when we do that.  It is so much better feeling, to not resent them for me helping out, I had mountains of resentment - literally.  Take ur time and give you permission to.  and know next time, u can feel better when you prioritize you and not rushing to fix it - whatver it is!

p.s.  I am sorry it is a difficult day for you right now and so glad to see you sharing here, it helps!  KCB and working it, bc ur worth it!

((rain)) i think "the results were predictable" is a great reminder for you, in doing things u dont want to do :)  sometimes we need reminders :) 
hey ...how are the  sesroh lol