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The book The Language of Letting Go made me think a lot today when I read about "the good days". I have had so many times in my life where something that feels good (anything) should also hurt or have a time when the other shoe falls and it turns out all wrong. The page on May 10th reminded me to enjoy the good days. And to also not try to ruin those good days by obsessively going into a search mode to find bad things, maybe weird cell phone numbers my bf called, or looking at his email or looking at his phone when he leaves the room. It reminded me to stay on my side of the street and keep looking at me in my program. I ask my hp to guide me today to help me keep feeling good. And to not search for bad things to make me feel bad again. I am learning that its ok to feel good :) That I am accepting of myself and love that I can get back to the new me so much quicker. Whats that saying I heard? I get sicker, quicker and am able to come back to my recovery. I am taking better care of myself, started taking a multi-vitamin again, some fish oil and garlic tablets. Also want to get another bottle of Vitamin-D3 for mental health... I am eternally grateful for all of you, my sponsor and this program !! And of course for hp, who has always been there :) edited to say: I also have been trying to apply what I read in Getting Them Sober. I have a hard time with it, its a huge change. But I am doing it and really liking the results. I thought it was just awesome that it said that 80% of people that used the principles in the book had results of the A becoming sober :) That just makes me want to work my program all the more. I detach with love and in love, I detach... working working working and keep on practicing... :)
-- Edited by sunflowergirl on Monday 29th of November 2010 04:04:48 PM
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You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. -Buddha
The past has flown away. The coming month and year do not exsist. Ours only is the present's tiny point. -Mahmud Shabistanri
Good post sunflower, I can relate. After weeks of drinking every day, binges, etc. there are finally a few days when ah doesn't drink. I once again see the man I fell in love with and am reminded of why I'm with him. (Something I sometimes forget on the ¨bad¨ days.) There are no arguments, we actually have fun and enjoy each others company. Not so many months ago I would have ruined the good times by my lingering anger and resentment of his drinking in the past. Or worrying about when he was going to get his next bottle and start again. I've learned that resentments and worrying about the future do neither of us any good. I've also learned that I can make the most of all the times, good and bad by giving my ¨stuff¨ to HP and remembering to take care of myself first. Not that I don't still sometimes forget and slip into old habits-but I'm getting better a little at a time. Thanks for the reminder to keep working on me.
