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I know this can be a tuff time of year for many of us. Myself included... But I will be strong and know that my Higher Power is handling what needs to be handled. I really don`t know how to elaborate on my HP but I know I must believe that there is something out there bigger than me that controls things in this world. After the last FRiday incident with my daughter loosing it on me because I left to do something because she wasn`t where she should have been on time. Things just have not been the same. Or maybe I just wasn`t aware of how much she hates me. Last year I put up with inordinate amount of abuse from her just so I could continue caring for the welfare of my grandaughter. It was suggested we see a counselor for our issues so this summer we tried to and neither counselor turned out to be worth the time or money. My daughter can manipute amazingly well but one of them was telling her lies that I was saying things that I wasnt. So needess to say we stopped. It apparently is back to where it was last winter when she was drinking quite a bit I suspect . During her rage on Friday she was saying how everyone is right. "I have to get you (meaning me) away from Sam "(gd).. I didn`t pay much attention to this since this has been a tune from the past but yesterday my grandaughter told me she hears mommy telling friends and other people how I brainwash my grandaughter and how awful I`am. Sam, was visably upset and said, if anything grandma, your teaching me how to be a nice person, not mommy. She also said to my gd and others that I think I`am above her. The only thing I can come up with that new statement is that she see`s me saying "no" to her at times and setting boundaries . Either way I feel badly that my daughter hates me but I have to realize that she is a sick person. I do hope that somehow my gd rises above the affects of this sad situation and I hope I can and continue to show her a healthier way of living.