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Well this past weekend was our AlAnon conference. I do believe we had over 350 in attendance and it was a beautiful, faith filled weekend....actually that was the topic-FAITH-Fantasic Adventures in Trusting Higher Power.
Well due to where I am with my uncle's health situation, I have been questioning my HP and if He exists why he lets some things happen...I started the opening kick off meeting on an honest note that I didn't want to rain on anyone's faith filled parade but I wasn't feeling it, and was quite po'd at my HP.....I ended it crying and sobbing in tears...Afterward several people came to me and told me they too were feeling distanced from their HP and thanked me for speaking. One man lead me to some answers or some help as did many.
I spoke several times throughout the convention-something I never do as I have a huge fear of public speaking, but I did, I shared and I grew.
Made a new friend too, and spent much good quality time with my old friends, including a very good friend of mine from AA who joined us.
Stocked up on plenty of CD's and recovery material and am working my way forward again.
Danced and laughed, smiled and cried, trusted and grew....It was an amazing convention, and I thank my HP, whom I call God, for leading me to every room I needed to be in....
What an amazing program...
Just for today...Shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
PO'ed and Thankful at your HP. I'll bet that works for your HP too! My HP allows me all of the roller coaster rides I want and never leaves. HP allows me to have downers and losses so that I can grow and help others just like you have done here sharing about your convention.
I remember an Alateen Conference I was privileged to go as a sponsor but really was deep into the down side of the coaster ride. My alcoholic wife and I were split for the 3, 4, or 5th time; I forget and I was in the dumps and looked it. One of the teens took charge of my growth and asked me why was I looking soooo sad and after I told her she taught, "Well don't you know Jerry F...happiness is an inside job" and then she went off to weave me a friendship braclet. I never had to search for my happiness again ever since. She was planted in my recovery by my HP so that I would learn that no matter what is going on in my life I can choose to be happy at anytime from the inside out. It doesn't depend on people, places or things outside of myself or else I might never be happy again.
