The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I cant' deny the parts of my life that are frustrating and disappointing and saddening. What I can do is while acknowledging all of this also acknowledge the good. Maybe I'm unable to let go of that stuff right now, but i can still see the good (there is plenty of that) and not judge which is more important right now. I can see both. Maybe I dont' have to accept what my life is now, but I can not beat myself up over it and see the positive stuff as well while I'm trying to change it. Maybe others have it better or worse than me. I can see both so that I can be grateful while trying to improve things. And yes the healthier I get the better life will get. Thanks all for the feed back. Sorry to vent so much. I needed to and your replies, varied as some were all helped me to focus.
Such progress, just venting and reading and venting again and being open and willing to question, question and question until you GET the point for yourself.
Baby Steps indeed...your journey has to begin with the first step.
That step is a step no matter how BIG or how small. It is the taking of that STEP that matters. Remember your daughter's first tentative steps, slow, purposeful, wobbly, and oooops, down she bumps...but wait, up she gets and there she is trying again.
And how you clapped and cheered her on. WELL DONE (((((MJH)))))) baby steps, grow into firm and full blown adult steps the more one grows and learns and gains in confidence.
Keep on keeping on.
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
You know, I know your money is limited. But I wonder, for me, when I do something very challenging and get through it, don't say try but say do, I feel better.
Then I feel better about life and not so afraid if I have to change something or move ahead.
Sometimes, usually not my choice, I find myself in situations that require LOTS of my brain and physical strength. I get thru them and feel so empowered.
I think about jumping out of a plane, you know hooked to an expert. To feel that totally out of control but in control thing.
Or skiing down a very steep slope, hiking to the top of whatever.
When we challenge ourselves we feel our own power inside. We find we can do more than we ever realized.
For me it is like the rescue I just did, or when my horse and I get the neighbors lose animals back in in the am.....
We as humans need things sometimes to make us work hard and keep going no matter what, to know we can.
Am I making sense? people used to have to work a farm, keep a well going, vet their own animals, make their own jelly, bread etc.
Maybe what we need is more doing. For us we need to find it as our lives are pretty darn disneyland.
Jump out of a plane, go drive a racecar, go kayaking, raft a rushing river, ride a bike ten miles, Do.
You are working so very hard on your brain and heart. Progressing so much!I invite you to challenge you.
Glad you are here and never get tired of your sharing!!!
I have been here over nine years no one has told me to get lost yet...close but has not happened. lol
Keep posting, keep working on yourself You have come a long way since your first post...don't stop now Take all those little victories you are achieveing and hold on to them. They are to be celebrated. Blessings
