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Thank you all for your support. The past couple days have been really hard, especially since I'm having a difficult time completely letting go of my A ex. Fortunately I have pneumonia and my parents won't let me leave the house. I know it sounds weird that I'm grateful to be so sick, but it is preventing me from seeing him which I know would make this situation so much worse. (By the way, living at your parents house when you're 20 and going to college and dating an addict? Not fun!) Anyways, on Sunday I went to my first meeting. I thought it started an hour earlier than it did so I was really late, and everyone there was at least twice my age, but it was a good place to be. I understand how my ex felt when he went to AA meetings. It feels so good being in a room full of people who know what you're going through. Especially when you're so used to people who not only don't understand, but criticize you for "being with such a horrible person". My A is the kindest, sweetest, most amazing and loving person I have ever met. But he does drugs. I don't agree with it, it makes him lie, and so we don't work together, plain and simple. He has been texting me through his opiate withdrawals the past few days, saying that they suck but they're so worth it because he wants to stop ruining his life. He wants to get clean and get back together. I want that so bad but I know not to give in. He seems like he's quitting for me, and I know that it won't last unless he is truly quitting for himself. So I'm trying to give him some time. He needs to work on himself and get physically and mentally healthy before he can even think of me. And I need to do the same. My mind is still all muddled up and confused. I need to take a breather to clear it and relax for once. Thanks again for everything guys. I really appreciate it and your support means the world to me. Have a good night.
It's so darn hard! Good for you for staying strong. Hope you feel better soon. Feeling sick just makes everything worse, but you are seeing the positives in it.
I know it does seem like there are a lot more older people at the meetings, but that is why its good for the younger crowd to go. Keep going and keep working your program :) I keep my focus on me and I feel much better. Sometimes when we are sick, it is our body's way of telling us its time to take it easy and take care of us. Surrender and get better :)
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You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. -Buddha
The past has flown away. The coming month and year do not exsist. Ours only is the present's tiny point. -Mahmud Shabistanri
Sorry to hear you have been sick. But am glad that you made it to your first meeting, that's wonderful...please keep going. I am sure the older people there appreciate younger people being there. No matter our age we can all learn from one another. Personally I learn a lot from new people that join the program. I am sure your exbf is going through hell coming off of opiates. That is rough stuff, depending on his usage he coula be sick for weeks or months as he withdraws. Take this time to continue working on you and keep the focus off your bf. He has his hands full working on himself allow yourself the same. Sounds like you are on the right track so keep up the good work. Keep posting Blessings
