Boy am I feeling the affects of not having been to a meeting.
Either for health reasons or I have been busy over the past week.
I find myself wanting to scream at my daughter... Usually I can control the
unrest and sometimes even feel bad for her but when I see that she is not caring for my gd something inside me gets me. The week has been hard and I  heard how she left a brand new jacket at a house last weekend while she was at a parade with my gd and she was drinking the whole time. She still hasnt gone to pick it up. Instead she chooses to put last years small jacket on her. Today she was suppose to be picked up at my house for her conmmuion class this morning and she was 45 minutes late. I believe she smelled of booze still and now the kid is getting to class when its almost over. I didn`t say anything. I called her and said, when are you going to pick up that new jacket I picked up for her for this years cold weather? She said, what are you calling to start with me? I was getting so angry , I felt my blood boiling.. I said you could have gone and picked it up all week.. I know I should have said nothing but I didnt, it really would have escalated because all she does is have excuses. I had to hang up or I would have said something I might be sorry for.  
My gd came over yesterday with  thin strech pants and tee shirt w/ a vest over it and it was 40 degrees out. I`am sorry for rambling I`am just so fed up.. I know I need a meeting. Lots of things are out of my control. I do my best to care for this little girl. I am always trying to buy her clothes so she will have them and to see her mother be so irresponsible is making me crazy...  Today there is a step meeting, maybe I will go to that. Thanks for listening to me... I feel so alone...

Rosanne