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Never feel particularly joyful these days but there's been no negatives to speak of and there have been some moments, even hours of enjoyment here and there. Exercising at night has been good. It clears my head and tires me out for bedtime. I've been a little more productive with somethings too, not procrastinating so much. Oddly my therapy session is the one thing I really look forward too (excited would be too strong a word but not that far off). It's tomorrow.....sometimes I think it's sad that this is the highlight of the week for me....but I also realize its the one place where I am consistently getting my needs met.
Yank...in JOY ment...I just love that word. Just one of the perspectives in recovery for me is "JOY is happiness without reservations". In JOY ment...don't you just love it? (((((hugs))))) keep coming back...doing good.
I have had many days like you describe here. Remember just the other day I was down in the dumbs yet again? It is so much easier to fall where we have been forever. So much harder to fight for the happiness. I wouldn't say I am totally and utterly happy now, but I am working on it. Its like a new born baby. So much work! You remember those days, of the baby needing so much and you being tired from her waking and eating, diapers and bottles etc. This work we are doing here, is a new born baby to me. I have to care for it, I have nurture it, feed it, keep it warm and dry... Eventually this new born will grow and be able to do things without me working so hard. For now, my new born me is in need of love and care and acceptance. I am working on that. You are too :) Hugs to you MJ!
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You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. -Buddha
The past has flown away. The coming month and year do not exsist. Ours only is the present's tiny point. -Mahmud Shabistanri
Somedays for me feeling "just okay" is a pricless gift to me. Because it means I am not stressing or obsessing. And sometimes i can take the "just okay" and make it a little better and for me thats an achievement. I am not sure thier is anyone out there who is Joyful every moment. If joyful was a constant than it would become so routine that joyful would turn into "just okay" Thats just my opinion Blessings