The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am here, gone but not forgotten. My Internet connection at home is very intermittent since January. I write a response and it cuts out, I rewrite and lose it again. So I haven't posted. I don't do much personal work at work mainly because it is work and I am too busy.
I miss you all. I hope you are all doing well in recovery. I see many new names and I hope you all keep coming back for experience, strength and hope. I attend my week AA meeting at home. I offer to lead a separate Alanon in another room. I am leading an Alanon meeting at lunch for a student. Every 4th AA meeting in another small town is an Alanon meeting that I lead. There are all beneficial. Sometimes the A's get a little too intense for me. I know where I belong in Alanon. However, the AA's give me a lot of support.
My sons are my greatest source of comfort and suport. They have their own lives but are there when I ask them for help. My youngest lives with me. He has a girlfriend and I know he will eventually move on. I realize that I can survive without my AHsober. He was "blustering" the other day and the thought came into my head that I don't need this man. I make small steps to being independent but I realize that I function better with companionship, friends, and help now and then.
My AHsober called the other day. He asked me what our youngest son's middle name was. I couldn't believe that he was serious because his middle name is my husband's family name. The realization that the disease of alcoholism exists even in sobriety. He functions unconsciously.
I work on recovery although not easy sometimes. I try to stay fit and healthy and focus on a life without a marriage. Support to you all for all your struggles and successes.
Hi Nancy, don't know you as I'm a little new here myself. Welcome back and glad to hear you seem to be moving on with your life. Good luck with everything. I can relate to your connection with your sons. My daughter is one of the (I was going to say one of the few but I'm trying not to be negative - there are SOME other things) great joys in my life. At 9 she's my greatest company. She loves to run errands with me, help me cook etc. Keep posting, I'm wondering what I can learn from you and others here.