I just realized today that nothing on the outside world has changed,

And that everything inside of me has changed,

Thus creating responses instead of reactions,

I have a voice,

I am an adult.

I'm not that scared little girl anymore.

She's growing up and changing.

Today I had a huge fear grip me like chains and I surrendered it. It took about ten minutes and then it went away.

It was fear, as i've seen here before, false events appearing real.

I have a huge imagination where false events appearing real grow if i allow them.

Then there are some that come and take my breath away. The difference is that I surrendered that fear instead of hanging on to it for days and letting it paralyze me. I knew in my mind to surrender, but I wanted to control that fear, so I kept it.

Today my heart cried out to my Creator, my Father, and I surrendered my fear because He is the only one who can rescue me. I am no longer the great rescuer of others, and I am no longer my own healer and rescuer. I must do the surrendering and the letting go, but the actual Power is in His hands, not mine.

I must be the channel by which His love and mercy flow through. I cannot be that channel when I am weighed down by negativity, and when I am not that channel it hurts.

I take two steps forward and three steps back sometimes, and that's ok. My HP is full of grace, love, mercy, kindness, forgiveness, healing, and strength. I must draw on that Strength daily.