The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
My AS checked himself out of rehab yesterday and called me at work to let me know.
After I got off the phone my mind went into hyper-drive, I felt sick at my stomach, shaking. I hate myself for not being able to control myself better, but I could tell by how he was talking that things with him will not change much, but I can hope.
I would love to have some peace in my life, but I don't. I have the Serenity Prayer folded and in my car so that I can take it out and read it time and time again. It seems that is all I can do.
I am so glad I can come here and share with you all.
99% of what kept me up nites didnt happen , worry solves nothing . I always forgot that the alcoholic had a Higher power too and would take him where he needed to go .. Letting go is the hardest part of recovery and I do understand your pain I hope u are attending f2f meetings for yourself u need support this board is just not enough .. Louise
Totally relate as I have an A son also. I have found that prayer is the one thing that helps me more than anything. As I am unemployed I will go into my room and think of a prayer mantra and say it over and over again until my heart feels some peace. Sometimes i fall asleep while praying and wake up in a much better head space My prayers are with you Blessings
