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So AH tries to bump himself off twice tonight. Of cours I save him and its not the first time. I won't go into details right now. I called his sister and told her I am done can't do it anymore. She is the only family member I can talk to since she just got out of the same kind of realtionship. The rest of the 5 brothers and sisters will have nothing to do with him. I found out he could have been working up in seattle and his friend who got him into the carpenters union would drive him there and back on the weekends and he has been trying to get him to go to meetings with him but my AH refuses to take the offer. He choose to complain about no jobs in Oregon when he was lying all along. His friend found him drunk in the park and took him to his house for the night. Don't know whats going to happen when I get home from work tonight. I'm tried of the whinning and complaining not going to listen to the bull and the tears anymore. The good thing I got a great nights sleep.
(((Snodebb))) I think we have all been where you are at one time of another. It is a helpless, frustrating place to be. I called law enforcement once when my AH threatened suicide. The county committed him for 30 days to a rehab. It didn't help except to make him horribly angy at me. Alcoholics will only seek help when and if, they are ready for sobriety. For some, they never reach that place. Unfortunately, there is nothing that you can do, except to take care of you. Try to get to a meeting if possible. I always feel better after and they are so helpful at putting things in perspective. I hope that you can find peace. Take what you like....
Dear Deb, it sounds like you have a resentment. I was recently given a resentment prayer by an old-timer, it goes like this: "God, bless them. And help me."
My experience with the disease is, that no human power can relieve it. The disease wants to separate us from Higher power, so my suggestion is, to take care of yourself during this very stressful time, by getting to lots and lots of meetings and, of course..... take time to pray and be with your HP.
Thank you for all the times you have been an angel to this fellow human being. ((((hugs))))
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
