The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Well today is a big day here for me. As many of you know I have been off work for 11 months due to illness. My short term disability ran out in May. So things have been tight. In June I got the doctor to release me for work if I find work closer to home so I don't have to drive. I then registered for unemployment. Which was denied because of problems with orginal doctors report.
I got a new Dr report, filed an appeal and have a hearing today. I felt very sure of myself as I spent the last month waiting for this hearing. This morning though I am filled with panic. All the bad symptoms of my illness are in full bloom and I am scared. On the kitchen table is a tablet and all the info for the hearing this afternoon but I can't settle myself enough to sit at the table and review it and write a brief outline of the points I want to make.
I decided to come here and write these feelings down, own them and let them go.
FEAR --- what an emotion. It can protect me in some circumstances -- disable me in others.
So there you have it...keep a thought for me I will be taking you all to the hearing with me.
Breathe deep and take us all with you to the hearing , your gonna be just fine . I also have it on good authority that God goes anywhere we need him stick to the facts present what u have prepared YOU can do this . Louise
Oh sweety, I am right there with you holding your hand. We can hold each other up!
I am in the middle of purchasing my first house and it is crazy making! I am leaving a home I LOVE to go to a city I don't like. It looks good on paper - own my own home, great price, great mortgage rates bla bla bla. None of THAT kind of stuff makes me happy - where I live makes me happy. But I guess this is all part of growing up, huh? I am putting every penny and MONTHS worth of hassel and I feel like I am downgrading. Bla.
This program helps me SOOOO much! Each time I get overwhelmed either intellectually or emotionally I just practice practice practice. Let it go, breathe deep, focus ONLY on what is in front of me. I am finding that is about once every 15 mins right now. Fear and tears are at my doorstep and I just keep refocusing. One little thing at a time and pretty soon I will be on the otherside and it will be a good story . . . (I hope) Reaching out for support is an important part of that. Good job. We are here for you.
You are in my thoughts, I hope today goes well for you.
Tricia
-- Edited by tlcate on Monday 18th of October 2010 02:45:45 PM
__________________
To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.
stick to the facts present what u have prepared YOU can do this . Louise