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sunflowergirl


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Today is a new day!  I am so grateful to be here on this planet still.  A year ago at this time, I was so suicidal that my doctor placed me in a psychiatric hospital.  I was so very sick.  I am so glad that I didn't do that unthinkable thing. 

I am working with a sponsor now and have seen that surrendering to HP is helping me.  I pray for minute by minute success at only thinking of me.  When I start to wonder what bf is doing, if he is using/drinking etc, I realize I am doing it and turn it back to me.  I am realizing it so much more quickly now and my slips are not as long as they used to be. 

I went home last night and danced in my kitchen to one of my favorite old songs "99 red balloons".  I had fun.  I laughed.  Bf just looked at me...  I think trying to figure out my body language... he is an expert at reading me.  I think I confused him.  But then his attitude changed and we were joking around before long.  My son even joined in.  We had a good night.  I am not expecting anything anymore out of him, just out of me.  I needed to get on here and share some good moments.  Accepting me for me, realizing who I am...  its just an amazing process...  thank you all!

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Yay for you, sunflowergirl!  I am glad you hear you are doing so well, and that you had some fun last night.  Thanks for sharing.

Kimmy


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sunflowergirl


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Thank you Kimmy :)

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smileHi Sunflower

Thanks for a beautiful share. Focusing on, and  accepting ourselves is what al anon is all about. 

Changed attitudes in the home can definately aid recovery

I am so happy that  you had a great evening and started off this day with positive energy

Keep sharing the journey

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sunflowergirl


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Thank you Betty :) It has been a great week since I stopped putting on expectations.

-- Edited by sunflowergirl on Friday 15th of October 2010 09:25:00 AM

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Aloha SFG...Yaaaahoo!!  Pull the curtains back and let the sunlight in and dance, dance, dance.

I like the picutre you painted with this post.   Makes me smile.  ((((hugs))))

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((( sunflower )))

Let me just say... reading your post absolutly made my day !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
To hear your progress for me was so joyful and hopeful smile.gif

Before I walked thru these doors I was in the deepst darkest hole anyone could be in. I had no hope of EVER living any kind of normal life again.
Like you today ( and yes i slip from time to time ) I see a bright future, a future of my own making.
And while you were talking about dancing in your kitchen...in my head I was dancing with you.
Again Thank you for bringing sunshine into my day today !!!!!!!!!
Blessings

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sunflowergirl


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Thank you Xeno and Jerry :) Every day is a new day... :)

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The past has flown away.  The coming month and year do not exsist.  Ours only is the present's tiny point.  -Mahmud Shabistanri
canadianguy


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Awesome stuff.... and I am really glad you made that (good) decision a year ago too!!!

Tom

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Lisa Clark


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I love the thought of you dancing in your kitchen! so happy for you! :) yayayayayay!!! keep taking care of yourself...

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