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Yesterday I found myself having one of many difficult days in recent months. Today was a total reversal. It didnt start out that way however. One of the issues I have been struggling with is added weight I have put on over the past year and a half. I complain about it but do little to stop it or reverse it. I was having a hard time finding an outfit that I was comfortable in for interviews I had today. My daughter in her own loving way was trying to help me but in doing so was of critical. With self esteem issues already I quickly climbed on my pity pot and threw tantrum kind of stuff.
Dressed in the car and on my way to my interview I realized what a monster I was so I decided to restart my day simply because I could. I took a deep breath, said the serenity prayer, called my daughter to make amends, then prayed to my HP and turned over the rest of my day. This in and of itself is a great turnaround for the day. As an added bonus for my morning as I am going to make a turn, I look to my side to see if traffic is clear and see a beautiful rainbow. So I make my turn and find myself driving into the rain. For a moment or two I had the thought of "just my luck I cant be driving towards the rainbow, I get to drive into the rain" The thought process passed quickly as I refocused on preparing myself for the interview ahead of me.
More raindrops throughout my day and off for another interview and multiple errands. By the end of the day running on fumes with more errands to run hating going back out into the rain I am surprised to find the sun shining. The emerging sun brought out not only one rainbow but a beautiful radiant double. I thought I was lucky enough to see one this morning but to have the opportunity twice in one day is something to add to my gratitude list.
The ability to restart my day and see beauty in what seemed a dismal day are gifts I learned from this program and I am grateful everyday for it.
Karen
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Nobody cares how much you know until they know how much you care. Love you all!
Karen
Alamom we are big rainbow lovers here too. Aren't they about description and soooo spiritually inspiring. Glad you got that double yessssir!! Just when you think one is good you find yourself worthy of a double. I wonder how many hundreds of others got it at the same time. ((((hugs))))