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level.
For the past 1 1/12 weeks I have felt at peace. I have not felt this for an amazingly long time and it feels wonderful! My A boyfriend who has switched from alcohol to oxcodone pills doesn't realize that I know what has been going on and I've just been going about my business taking care of the things I being a stay at home mom is supposed to be doing. I'm not sure how or why my feelings have changed I just know that it feels great right now and I have to work hard with myself to keep it that way. I feel bad for my A because he is struggling so much with depression and has an appointment to see a psyshologist this month. When I see or talk to m boyfried I can tell now (where as before you couldn't always tell) that he is depressed so I have been kinder to him and more patient and it feels good compared to the anger and resentment I was feeling for so long. I hope he gets the help he needs. Right now in today I feel good and I'm gonna go with it!! Holly
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You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice.
Holly so good to hear :) Sounds like accepting step 1 :) best thing you can do is what your doing which sounds like taking care of yourself and your needs. There is a certain relief one finds in step one. Glad your here :) good for you and thank you for your post.