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Two Days ago... My Son (13) about caught the house on fire, he was smart enough to go for the extengusher, and save our home, however I could not get over what a HORRIBLE mistake he made, "Putting a Plastic Plate In the Toaster Over"....
He is Generally an "Overly" Causous child (I'm sure my cody traits have something to do with that)... So this "Mistake" tho I got the fire out, and no Interier damage was done, "Other then the toaster over" I am Very blessed... However I Stewed it in for days... (What Woulda/Coulda/Shoulda happened) I couldn't get out of my mind....
This morning after walking my son to the bus stop, my neighbor stops me... Tells me that his wife of 40 years last month... had a heartattach over the weekend that put her in a coma, and caused almost complete brain damage.... He had to take her off life support last night....
Tho it wasn't how i had planned to start my morning, I just can't help but be mad at myself for "Stewing" in my own issues when this poor man is having to live with one of the hardest decissions any person has to make... I got Lucky... Nothing was Hurt, but the replacable toaster over, and my sons "Even More Causous" ego...
Sometimes when God Opens My eyes, I don't like what I see... This morning I can't help but cry knowing that this man worshipped the ground this wife walked on, he did nothing for himself since she took sick about 5 years ago, with breathing problems the doctors couldn't even solve or know what they were... He never said a Cross word about her... (Rare in my world) Just the kindest two people...
I rest in knowing that they were HUGE in their Faith, So he knows she is going to a better place, but i just can't imagine what he is up against... Too Some this just sounds like "Life", but too me... the relationship "They" had, I envy'd... Because that kinda love was not present a whole lot in my life... The kind that last forever...
So if you have a Spare Prayer today... I would be most grateful if you could send one up for my neighbor Rich...n that she goes in peace, in which she so deserves...
Grief always brings out in me the nervousness of not Doing "Enough"... I want to jump in and Save this man from his pain, even tho I know I can't...Death has always sent me into survival mode... Which then send me back to old ways, n old habits... I guess I'm just tryin to hold on to it all... With out being over barring... Just at a loss I suppose...
Awww, of course, Jozie. I always have a spare prayer.
I am very relieved to hear that your house did not catch on fire. Kids are just kids sometimes - I think they don't always have the experience or ability to think their actions all the way through. I am glad your son knew to get the fire extinguisher and didn't panic - and most relieved of all that he wasn't hurt.
Isn't it amazing how we can be lost in our own problems until we see someone struggling with a much bigger one. Kind of puts things into perspective. Prayers on the way for your neighbors.
