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I AM NOT GOING TO EXCUSE MYSELF BUT LATELY IT REALLY HAS BEEN EVIDENT OF GOD'S PRESENCE IN MY LIFE LATELY. I AM MORE THAN GRATEFUL IF IT IS POSSIBLE TO BE SO! TO ALL YOU NEW PEOPLE, I CAN SEE HOW THIS MIGHT BE A TOUCHY SUBJECT!
BUT HERE I GO: LATELY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN SHOWING UP IN MY LIFE AT THE EXACT TIME I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THEM OR HAVE GOTTEN A CALL FROM THEM WHEN I HAVE BEEN READY TO CALL THEM. THESE PEOPLE ARE MY SPIRITUAL FRIENDS IF YOU WANT TO CALL THEM THAT! I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH LIFE KNOWING THAT THERE REALLY ARE NO COINCIDENCES IN " MY'" LIFE AT ALL. I AM BASING THIS ON MY EXPERIENCES. I AM NOT SURE WHERE YOU ALL ARE(ACTUALLY OBVIOUSLY I DON'T KNOW YOU ALL)! I JUST KNOW THAT AFTER WORKING THIS PROGRAM FOR 24+ YEARS, I HAVE COME TO MANY CONCLUSIONS & MY HP KNOWS ME LIIKE NO ONE ELSE. I AM SO TOUCHED BY WHAT HE HAS DONE FOR ME & THAT I AM STILL UPRIGHT & ABLE TO SHARE THESE EXPERIENCES WITH ALL OF YOU! YOU CAN BE SURE THAT I PROBABLY NEVER QUIT BEING ON THIS SITE UNLESS YOU KICK ME OUT OR COMPUTERS BECOME OBSOLETE!
I DEFINITELY HAVE A LOT TO SAY & PARDON ME IF I AM STRESSING THE IMPORTANCE I FEEL TO RELY ON A HP & THE FACT THAT I AM TYPING IN CAPS TODAY!
YOU CAN TAKE THIS OR LEAVE IT AS MANY OF US HAVE IN ALANON MEETINGS. TAKE WHAT YOU LIKE & LEAVE THE REST. I AM ONLY A VESSEL OF WHAT I KNOW TO BE SURE. EVEN IF I ONLY PLANT A SEED, I HOPE THIS IS TAKEN WELL.
I LOVE YOU ALL W/ A SPECIAL LOVE THAT YOU WILL EXPERIENCE AS YOU GROW IN THIS PROGRAM.
If someone does not believe in God they have a right to recovery also. The HP I know would insist on this.
I tell those that dont believe that the 10 commandments are still a good set of rules to live by. When we die if we followed them we might be saved. If not we have left the world a better place for all those we know and care about.
Love it and I am with you 100 percent , I came to program about the same time u did believing in nothing nor was I interested in learning about a God of anyones understanding . I used to leave meetings if the G word was used to often in my opinion. Thank God he is patient took me awhile but I got there . And to think all I wanted was a sober husband , miracles are not limited here I have so much more in my life .. Yrs ago at a retreat I was fed up and said that I was going to quit this stuff and forget it a woman said to me Don't leave before the miracle. I thought of course that she meant sobriety - a yr later I saw her again she was pleased to see me still attending meetings I was still a little confused about the miracle thing so I asked her what she meant she said what did u think I meant ? so I said well sobriety of course . oh no she replied thats HIS miracle yours is finding out who u were meant to be . duh I found here a God that I still dont understand but appears to understand me quite well I get what I need and a bonus occasionally I get what I want . Ha
Today I sign all emails with I came -I came to - I came to BE
-- Edited by abbyal on Monday 23rd of August 2010 06:05:34 PM
It's a God thing...it is only a God thing. LOL I just gotta laugh out loud when someone gets "touched" by their HP as if it wasn't supposed to happen to them. So funny. Part of the "sanity" thingy for me is about being touched during a race to a solution I cannot arrive at by myself. I've had others in the membership and outside professionals witness some of the times I've been touched by HP and did I need the proof? no it was about them needing it. Have I doubted? You betcha!! I have not only doubted but I have shouted using my best gutter french at my HP and got the miracle anyway or in spite of it or just because it was really needed. The great part is realizing that you're being touched by HP and outside of how you would expect it. Cunning, Powerful and Baffling; HP is. Often times others describe the process just as it happens with me; just as you have here also Kath. I realize that had I got into recovery sooner it would have happened sooner. "It" meaning those times when my HP has intervened in the process of my life and taken direct leadership and those times when HP has arrived just to remind me that I've got a God and am not a God. LOL.
I returned home in 1993 by direction from my HP. When I asked why I should leave my then home and come back to Hawaii, HP told me "because your soul was created there." When I came back and continued my recovery it included a geneology with my HP (I also did one with my family). What I found out was that another reason my HP wanted me back here was to continue building on the early relationship and it included me leaving the religion of my family and returning into the culture I was raised inside of. This is a God-thing!
Don't let your head try to do what your heart does better. ((((hugs)))) You rock Kath.
-- Edited by Jerry F on Monday 23rd of August 2010 08:00:21 PM
Jerry: I like what you said about returning because your "soul" was there--very poignant! I left my home, because my "hope" was here; I believe this with my entire being! I love everything you say & apprecitate every word you send through this wonderful site! Kathleen
in my opinion. Thank God he is patient took me awhile but I got there .