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I haven't visited this site or read any Al-Anon literature nearly all week. And as a result this has been an emotional week for me. I'm feeling stressed about the direction my life is going right now. I guess really the lack of direction. I am in this weird place of transitioning from one way of living into another. When I lost all of my stuff and moved in with Abf and family, it was obviously unexpected for us all, but I still don't have a space to call my own. Before this, I lived alone and could keep a safe distance from all the chaos. But now it feels like I am living in the middle of the storm. Also I feel like I have lost some of my independance now that I am under someone elses roof. It's like I'm back in high school and living at home. I'm being sucked into issues that aren't even mine to bear. Now I understand why so many people attend weekly f2f meetings and become life long members of Al-Anon. It helps ya stay focused on what's important and gives ya tools to work through alot of confusion and pain. Just looking for a little comfort and insight is all.
. Now I understand why so many people attend weekly f2f meetings and become life long members of Al-Anon. It helps ya stay focused on what's important and gives ya tools to work through alot of confusion and pain. Just looking for a little comfort and insight is all.
Hi NH
I do believe you answered your own posting and it sounds as if you understand just why you are feeling disconnected and surrounded by isues without support.
We need the company of others on this road in order to grow and practice this program Please break the isolation, find meetings in your area, come here often -post and attend on-line meetings
Aloha NH...know what was and comforting for me? The same thing that caught your eye and imagination also. What the program does for others that I didn't have going on in my life. I wanted that and wanted it badly...balance, security, power to choose to meet my own needs without putting my life on hold for the alcoholic anymore. Freedom!! I wanted to place my life into the will of a power greater than my alcoholic and to grow away from the disease. Freshest wind of change for me was the courage to do it.
Come into the rooms of Al-Anon...come learn what we've learned. ((((hugs))))
I live around A's, work around A's and have interacted with them all my life. If I work a al anon program and focus on myself I can deal with it without becoming totally preoccupied. Otherwise I am absolutely lost to the wind.
That's kind of funny cause I did answer my own posting, didn't I! Ha! I guess I had to work things out as I was writing. I sometimes think I want insight now, answers now, balance now, etc. (perfection now). I just need to remember to keep the focus on me even in the eye of the storm; loving yourself means letting go of others' insanity. Sometimes that is easier said than done. I guess I need to set aside time every single day to read Al-Anon literature maybe in the morning so I can start my day off with a concentrated focus. Attend weekly f2f meetings and then end my day with MIP. And as I continue on with this great journey of mine, I find that placing my life into the hands of my HP (I need to trust that feeling more) gives me the greatest peace of mind even when things are unbalanced.
Thanks you guys for being a great resource and support.
