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If you have ever done research on kicking this poison, you will be shocked. Soo many stories of the exact same symptoms.
One main one being "brain shivers."
In my head I will hear a, flap flap flap. Plus my right hand is tingly and numb.
I know kicking heroin one of the symptoms is a cold like thing ya go thru.Saw it more than once in my friends.
This is tough. Am off completely now for about a week.
Crying super easy, emotional. But not depressed.I feel serene and happy. Just know I have some grief work to do.
My paternal gma was Lakoyta Sioux. I was reading and have the knowledge to build me a simple sweat lodge. Soooo that is in the works. It helps us spiritually, physically and emotionally. Brings ya very close to the creator.
So for me that will be a huge key in kicking this dang drug.
hugs to ya'll. love,debralyn the one with the brain shivers...
Another bad thing is zero memory, or close to it. One second I know what a rose is the next am fighting for the word rose.
The worst is these very real busy nightmares. Also before I go to sleep I get super scared. NEVER have been before.
It is no secret I am out here alone. My nine ml is right on my nightstand perfectly posed for me to grab and use.
I have nine dogs too. Fencing that now one wants to try to figure out, lol
I had a dream that I could hear the tv on in the living room.Grabbed my gun. It is always so real in my dreams.Sorta like terror. Wake in the morn remembering how everyone is dead and I am still alone.
But I get busy with the animals and really am ok. Is what it is. Seem to have these huge tears too. Just those bad chemicals being scrinched out.
see look I am replying to my own post.how sick is that??? hahahaha
Sweat lodge can bring you closer to the creator than you expected or hoped. Remember the woman who died in a sweat lodge a few months ago? I mention this out of clear concern for you. Do take care of yourself.
Diva
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"Speak your truth quietly and clearly..." Desiderata
I am proud of you- your brave a medical doctor might be able to help the physical a little so you can focus more on the mental and emotioal needs of your body. NO Money? surely a church or social service agency somewhere might help. Let me know if you would like any long distance help with that- I have experience working with helping people obtain needed medical help
I've always wanted to build a sweat lodge, good for you. Do some research and be careful
Thank you for posting about your trials and pain of weaning off effexor. Even though my xah never took it as prescribed and stopped taking it cold turkey your descriptions do help me to understand some things that happened during that time much better. I appreciate it!
Hey thank you. I am fine. Have medicare due to being disabled. Plus I have a sponsor this year who picks up all my med. needs after medicare. Sure appreciate that!
I did call my great doc. He told the nurse to tell me he had ideas that may help. My daugher told me of some good herbs that help even heroin kickers.
Well my emotions are right there flowing out my eyes. lol.
I know it will even out.
I watched one of my fav English movies,"death at a funeraly" omg laughed and cried and my tummy hurt. If you have see it you will know what i mean when I say hurry hurry, Its touch and go, touch and go!!
My kitchen looks like a tornado went thru it. Am getting my front garden so pretty again. gotta bend at my waist to do anything but just do a bit at a time.
Enjoying my funny huge tortoises. Fred and Jeffery. Brought them red roses that were on clearance...this gal tries to tell me ow to make them nice again. I said well they are for my torts. She gave me a funny and horrified look, i said well i will keep a couple...lol
My bloodwork was like so excellent, all this work is sure showing. i won't tell ya i just had a handfull of milk choc, chips. gotta throw them outside for the pots.
Just cannot imagine kicking heroin or alcohol.Ya do have to want to not take it bad to be able to not.
maybe I was always like this before I was on it. could I really cry this much and be so emotional??
I'm not withdrawing from Effexor, but I'm right there with you on the emotions. I'm a cryer. I cry when happy, I cry when sad. I cry when proud, I cry when exhausted. My hubby used to tell me he loved that about me. We could be watching some movie, with a little happy or sad part and I burst into tears. He used to just come give me a hug. God I miss him.
My thoughts and prayers still with you girl. Take Care, Rocky
Glad you are starting to feel better and getting confirmation from the doc's about it. Wanted to add that the original english version of "Death at a Funeral" is one of my all time favorites. Watched that during a really horrid time in life and I laughed so hard I had to stop the movie over and over again because I could not open my eys far enough to see it. And ohhh did my face hurt afterwards ... it was great