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Had a little a ha moment this morning and want to share it. I was doing some talking with my HP. I was asking my hp to help me love him as I was having a bit of an acceptance problem. An acceptance problem I have practiced over and over again.
The answer Why don't you trust I love you. Oh my goodness, I want things to go my way but when I look back how the things I have struggled with in the past have worked out ok in the long run, actually better than expected. I have not trusted my higher power. Oh yeah I came to believe in a power greater than myself, but how could it be a good relationship if I refuse to believe that "I" can be loved and that I can trust that love? Is the reason that I feel I have to manipulate situations? Force results? Results that looking back didn't always work out so great.
This is a lot for my little brain to comprehend still alot of thinking to do. I hope this makes some kind of sense, but with my sponsor at work and a big chunk of understand coming around for me..I had to share it here with people I think will understand.
One last thought, I have been in the program a while...I am still completely amazed how the learning just keeps coming about. This is someone who thought she could finish things up in a matter of weeks. I am grateful I have stayed around for a multitude of miracles.
hello nice to see u again and dont u lovethose light bulb moments when everything becomes perfectly clear ? Alone time ago a speaker said her relationships go as follows , God , herself and God , her husb , children and friends . trusting a power that we cant see is tough but i took that ladys formula that day and have tried to apply it to my life so far it works God first *trust * then I learn to trust myself knowing that God has restored some sanity to me and Ican think clearly today . A dear f riend and fellow Al -Anon member always said God is in everything or Nothing , half assed just dosent work , she explained half left me with alittle bit of room to manipulate hehe . so all or nothing it is.
I too Love Light Bulb Moments that HP just springs on us, I was always a HUGE Manipulater when it came to getin things Done, I could make it happen, even if it wasn't what was needed, I would PUSH it thru, Not only drive myself crazy, but most of the people around me, cause as soon as I felt Negected or let down, I just chuv on thru, and do it myself, and isolate any other help...
This Program has taught me that it is OK if I can't do it all... It is OK if it don't work out as planned, "Not many things really do" EVER... I have learned to STOP sticking my foot out of be Run over Yet again, and just stay back and see were things unfold... It is truly a Diferant consept for me but I am Trying... I do find much happiness in just "Letting Go Of Things I Can Not Control" is nothing short of a true Blessing... HP ROCKS :)
Aloha FM...boy am I glad about checking in this morning and getting your share early. Powerful!! and sooo right on. You found the light and are using it to help other read directions with. I am grateful for that. Mahalo (((((hugs)))))
