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I didn't sleep well last night. I had to fight my depression this morning alone, as when I was feeling it, I didn't feel I could call anyone that early in the morning. I fought through and I am working on staying positive now. I know that for me, when I don't sleep well, my depression and panic attacks have a way of taking over. I am going to remember what I am thankful for today: my two sons, my kitty cats, a good cup of coffee, a wonderful new apartment that I am getting soon, time... Even when my depression gets bad like this morning, I know I can look online and find this group or look up things that will keep me positive. I am proud of myself for getting through it and moving past it. I am glad I have found this board for between the f2f meetings... Thank you for being there in spirit...
Totally relate Maize Last couple of weeks my anxiety attacks came back fast and furious. Finally had to drag myself to the Dr as I wasnt eating or sleeping, which is the worst things I can do in these situations. Things getting back to normal now thank god. Blessings to you and enjoy your new apartment
I tried klonopin/xanax and anti-depressants. They were a good tool at the time, but eventually I decided to get off of everything as I feel much clearer without. I think they are good if used in moderation :) I am def. aware of when I might need them though, so I have some just in case :) Thank you both for your replies!
Way to go Maize your gonna be okay , and a gratitude list is a great start to your day , list everything even the little things food , roof over your head , enough money to pay the bills , those were all the things i simply took for granted nevr appreciated anything when i arrived here . I had write it down on paper so \i didnt forget hehe - in my head it was the negative that always came first .i have a huge gratitude list today ,your going to have a few rough days life throws us curves occasionally but with help we work thru them a little at a time and once settled in this program we are never alone again unless we choose to be . How great is that ? one day at atime there is nothing we cant do . Louise
I just want to offer that meditation helps me stay off medication for both depression and anxiety. I had too many side effects to all the meds I tried. Years ago, I had the opportunity to take a class in meditation (I go to extremes, haha. ) Daily practice keeps panic symptoms away and I have noticed that if I don't do it... I will not sleep well.
Step 11 suggests that we seek to improve our conscious contact with HP through prayer and meditation. Everything is better when I remember that my HP, who loves me as much as any human parent could love a child.... is so very near.
Take what you like... ((hugs))
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
Thank you Louise! I really feel so much better today, guess I had a bit of relapse yesterday, but came through :)
Glad Lee: Oh I love my meditation time, and I am working it into a more of a routine at night. I too had bad reaction to the meds (Klonopin pushing me over the edge to the mental hospital for 5 days) and I am so happy to be off them and free :) What kind of class did you take? I have a Panic attack meditation CD and I love to listen to Native American flute music... Also the sounds of the ocean on my alarm clock that is also a sound maker.... Thanks for that imput!
Nothing like the love of kittycats to put things in perspective. I call it fuzz therapy. You are doing just fine. We all have moments of panic. I like to come here or in the chat room when I can't sleep or it's too early to call a friend. Making a gratitude list always helps. Remember baby steps is the best way. You'll be great. Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
P.S. What are your kitties names?
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Karilynn, thank you! (((HUGS))) My kitties are Dusty (part Maine coon we believe, but a black and white long hair domestic, with huge face full of whiskers, big long body and silky fur) and the kitten is Orion, he is a grey tiger baby. Unfortunately my ex has them living at his place right now until I can move into my apartment. I miss them dearly. And he controls the situation by making sure I am there a few times a week to clean the cat box and such. He said "at least I feed them for you"... HA! I am powerless over the cat box and my ex! :) Thanks again, and I am trying!
