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Hi All.....Im on a right downer at the mo and not much good to man nor beast.... A damn big black cloud is surrounding me and isnt shifting.
It was my birthday yesterday...yay.... and for the 1st time in 3 yrs I got a lovely card from Ason....who is currently two weeks into a 16 week rehab, ..... but I just feel done. I just sobbed and sobbed when I saw his untidy handwriting on the envelope and when I look at the card I see a son who knows me, remembers what I like, and I know he chose the card with care.....
Oh my- how I struggle with this! It will never fail to bring tears to my eyes remembering all the ways my exHA tried to be thoughtful. This disease tortures everyone it touches!
We have an old hymn we sing here in the southern part of the U.S. called "Precious Memories", and that is what we have about our children, when we get that little glimmer of them again the emotions just come flooding in like a river.
I used to sing the words of that hymn in church, but now I know what the words of the hymn means.
Don't be hard on yourself, we are only flesh and blood.
Happy Birthday Ness!! How wonderful that your son is in a program and able to remember to send you a card. How wonderful that he is still alive and trying to get sober. I wouldn't say that you have a black cloud over your head... I think that our HP is helping you and your son and all is pretty darn good with your world today... Peace to you... and your son.
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... it's about learning to dance in the rain.
Happy Belated Birthday. I know this is hard on you. Your son is in the right place. His handwriting is shaking for a reason. It's hard to see, but realize he is getting better. You've been through alot. Go out and do something extra nice for yourself. You deserve it. Much love & blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
what recovery! So good to feel feelings and share them openly! What a birthday gift to yourself. Huzzah!
lest you think I am being sarcastic.... let me explain.... I am still at the stage of suspecting my Adaughter's NICE gestures as manipulation. I hope for the day I can just see it as good stuff albiet a bit sad and cry.
Hope you had some awesome birthday cake for yourself.
blessings, donna/adonaisgirl
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One Day at a Time I am POWERLESS but not HOPELESS Be sure to BREATHE and SMILE!!!
Much love & blessings to you and your family.
