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I wish I could be constant positivity.......I wish I could be a jolly little trooper all the time......and I wish I had it together..........
Ok, So about two hours ago my cell phone fell in a university public toilet as I swung my purse around in the stall...........And for this insignificant little situation, I find myself getting upset at my Higher Power...........
How is this? Over a phone? There was a couple of my children's pictures in there, that I didn't upload....that is why I'm so angry. I'm also upset at myself for not uploading them.
Anyhow, I get upset at my HP after I pray, meditate, go to my meetings, journal, etc. .........I feel like I've had enough of school....yet when I was working and going to school I felt like I had enough of work.....and now I'm intimidated as I"m not sure if I'll get a good career...............wow, when I reread that I realize how hard I'm trying to control things. wow....
I guess I can look on the bright side and hey, It's time to shop for a new phone! or From now on I'll make it a point to take pictures on my camera instead of my phone.....or just take better care of my phone. I'm a complete scatterbrain as it is, so like that is going to happen! .....I guess I"m just going to have to take things a "Second At a time and try not to rush things and try extra hard to *focus*. Anyhow, at least the children have more childhood photographs than I ever did.
I guess I just feel not so good about being mad at my HP.....but hey, maybe that is just a lovley reminder that "I do not have to control" everything........and to just step back and relax...........Thnx
Ps. The good thing about this post is that the focus has been completley on me..
And you already know I suspect that when you get mad at your HP, you're getting mad at some one who loves you unconditionally so you're safe. HP don't run away and after you're finished ranting HP's way will give you a hug and a pat on the butt and send you out to play again. Sooo safe!! ((hugs))
Hi ((((Rose)))) I think it's perfectly acceptable and expected that we get angry at our HP, as a matter of fact, I think it's healthy. Better Him than some mere mortal who can't understand forgive us for our often harsh and unfair blame! And, as JerryF said, He doesn't hold it against us and it's a wonderful feeling to be able to rant against someone and know that He will still love us just the same when we are done. Maybe that new phone you are going to be shopping for will help you feel better. Thinking of you today.
love from Denise
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"The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time."
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"The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time."
Thank you for the wonderful reminders of what our HP really is/are........Thinking of you too.... PS. Phone takes better pictures, so yes, a little better :) Plus, that day was a reminder that tangible things will never compare to the the most valuable people and lessons of life.