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I am heartbroken today. The only thing that keeps me going I think are the slogans I keep telling myself. Keeping my side of the street clean, I'm not given more to deal with than I can handle, even though this is hard, and that hp has some kind of plan.
My furry friend is keeping me company though. He lets me hug him and kiss him and shows me love and affection. I don't mind moving my keyboard so he can sit right in front of me. Seems to be his favorite spot lately.
I am sad for you hon. A broken heart is the worst. Feeling so lost.
I used to say the Serenity prayer over and over. And told myself,"everything is ok" a lot too. Still do sometimes.
Life is very, very hard. Some times it beats us down, the bad stuff seems to overwhelm us.
I understand and want you to know I care very much. We who are close to or having to deal with A's have a special set of things to feel. So we have each other to support.
Sometimes we feel so bad, if we could figure it out, we would give us whatever to make us feel better!
Just get thru it. It will get better, or what i mean is you will feel better. Remember to nap, and really take care of you. Bring in some flowers even if they are wild ones or the neighbors! love,debilyn
I have heard many times "This too shall pass" which usually irritated me until one day a fellow 12 stepper said "This too shall pass, it's just something you have to walk through." That told me that they understood my pain and that there are lessons I will learn along this path I must walk. These lessons will help me grow and I will be able to pass them along to others when my walk is finished.
Sometimes it's difficult to see what possible lesson could be hidden in all of the pain. I had a hard time seeing it when my father and father in law both passed away within 10 days of each other and then 6 months later my sister passed due to an overdose. I was overwhelmed with what life lesson could possibly be hidden in all of that pain and anger. A few months later I received a call from a fellow Al-Anon member who was facing familiar circumstances. I was able to share with her my journey and therein lay the lesson I was given to learn. I was able to ease another person's pain by sharing my own.
This too shall pass, it's just something you have to walk through.
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Everything I have ever let go of has claw marks all over it.
Thank you. You guys are the best at making me feel loved and cared about. I do believe things happen for a reason too Mobirdie.
Debilyn your sentence "We who are close to or having to deal with A's have a special set of things to feel. So we have each other to support." really touched my heart. It about made me cry. The neighbors flowers? lol I have some planters with snapdragons on my porch which I love.
As I was sitting outside last night and was looking at my flowers I thought it was amazing I brought them back to life. For a while I kept forgetting to water them every night and they about died but I was persistent and started taking good care of them and they thank me with blooms in all kinds of bright colors.
Guess I need to keep 'watering' myself too and remember to every single day and not skip a day because I know with skipping the watering of the flowers, one day will turn into two and so on and before I know it a week went by.
Debilyn thank you for bringing up the flowers. It brought more awareness of the important stuff to me.
I don't really care to cut flowers and bring them in the house. They last so much longer outside (if taken care of).
To keep myself busier I've decided last night I'm going to exercise again. Going to try and get my six pack back Plus it will make me feel a lot better about myself.
Thank you all so much for caring. I'm better today.
Sending you extra love & prayers. You will get through this. There is nothing like fuzz therapy to help us get through our darkest hours. They know. Much love & blessings to you.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Hope you are feeling better. There is no pain like that of a broken heart.
This too shall pass iritated me a little when I first heard it. Felt like people were saying, "get over it!". But then there was the light that statement offers. There is the feeling that you will be stuck in the pain and darkness of where you are forever. Grabbing onto the hope that "This too shall pass" helps make it more bearable to walk through the pain and frustration to the other side. This will not last forever is a wonderful thing to understand when the pain really is all-encompassing and feels so heavy it will never be lifted.
It will pass. There is joy, happiness, and light on the other side. In that there is hope.
We are here for you. Big hugs!
tlc
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To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.
