The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
My xah has let me know he is in an intensive treatment facility, a requirement of his prison sentence or an early release program I imagine. I feel ashamed after reading his letter notifying me of a change of address that I felt no hope, my only real thought was ... ahhh gonna spend another 6 months or so pretending to bs the best therapists and the other bs'ers? I remembered to, Let it begin with me and tried to, Keep an open mind ... said a prayer for him and reaffirmed that I would, Mind my own business and, Let his HP take care of his business.
The next day I recieved a 4 page letter of passive aggressive manipulating apologies. I'm going to,Think and, Keep it simple just request no contact thru the new facility. Progress, I did not react with instant fear. Not Perfection, I could have not opened or returned them. Just for today I am doing ok. I am grateful, But for the grace of HP there go I. I am grateful I am beginning to understand how to, Love, learn and grow.
I relate to your post! How I felt when my exha was receiving intensive facility treatment; how I felt/feel every time he changes his address; how I feel when being the recipient of passive aggressive sentiments when he attempts to reel me in for the big kill. So many emotions that can have the potential to occupy and overcome space and time!
You are working the program well! Keep taking good care of you!
