The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I can't believe I didn't go sooner. It seems that sometimes WE have to hit OUR personal bottom to seek out real-live help just like the A does? There was plenty of opportunity for me to go before I left, but the meeting I was interested in was Saturday mornings..and I wanted to sleep in on Saturday mornings...and blah, blah, blah...excuse after excuse.
I felt a sense of relief come over me just from being there. It felt like there were "friends" among me, ready to help me IF I decide that I want them to. They are not pushy....They are just there.
I really didn't talk until after the meeting when they asked me if there was someone I loved that is an alcoholic. That is when I explained why I was there. They had some books, so I got "Courage to Change". They told me that relationships with alcoholics can work, that they are difficult, but that coming back to alanon will help me get on with MY life regardless of whether I stay in the alcoholic relationship. They had the same worries that I have had and told similar stories to mine.
It's a start.
I am posting this for anyone who is having trouble taking that first step. Take it if you want to feel a little peace amongst your chaos. It DOES help.
Will I have the courage to go back without my mom next week? I'm not going to worry about that today..........Instead, I'm going to start reading the book that I got.
Way to go! And you'll love Courage to Change - I love all the daily readers. I have all three, I keep one at home, one in my car and one in my desk at work, so no matter where I go, I can always pull out some Al-Anon.
And I feel exactly the same way when I get to meetings - support!
I can really relate to the sense of relief. I thought there was something very uniquely wrong with me - I was so ashamed that I loved an alcoholic. I have not felt alone, ever, since I became an active participant in alanon.