The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have lived a troubled life, things have happened which I had no control over and lots of things happened which I did but didn't know how, I have stumbled along in this life often so despairing wondering what my purpose was on this earth, and I turned all of that inwards and I have wallowed and bathed in it daily for many years, it over spills now and again my frustration my inhability to take care of me, to put me first, So this week I am living in the garden in my caravan, my daughter has just finished her degree and gone travelling, my husband is sober but depressed and has a percecution complex that has driven me half mad, and I have sat here in my caravan, for two whole days reading alanon and the big book and praying to god, and guess what? He answered me, he sent an old friend knocking at my door who knows me well, out of the blue a text bleeped on my mobile from an alanon freind, and I feel different I feel like well I feel light, I feel like I have finally got it! I have been thinking and thinking so hard, but i wasn't feeling it and today I feel strong I feel in charge of my own destiny.
I stood firm on a descison to not allow my son into our home the other day, because of his behaviour and disrespect, it was hell following through, in hindsight it was my own fear, but you know what? That lad is a diamond, tough love works, self doubt cripples me, doing something different is soooooooooooooooo hard, but it gives freedom from freedom too!
Aloha Katy...If you have a Courage to Change go to the page of the day 6/30 and think on it. God does and will find us where we stand even inside of our Caravans. Tough to picture from here. I will you well and am grateful for your support.
Hi, (((Katy)))!! So glad to hear that you are feeling good about yourself and life in general today! It never ceases to amaze me how often a friend will call or text or visit out of the blue, just when I really needed them, even when I didn't realize I needed them until that moment. It makes me feel like God is watching out for me all the time, and answering prayers even when I don't have sense enough to ask for what I need! He knows and He cares. I hope you have a wonderful, peace-filled day. Thanks for sharing; it was a lovely way to start my morning!!
Denise
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"The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time."
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"The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time."
They don't call this place Miracles in Progress for nothing. Expect miracles and they will happen. It was hard, you did so well. If you look at July 1 reading in the Courage to Change the last line is this: "Today I will make an effort to remember that I am a terrific human being." It doesn't take an effort on my part to know that it is true about you. Continued success on your journey of recovery. Enjoy the serenity you have gained. Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
