The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
WELL...I am not ungrateful; that's for sure! I have a shower, yes I do. I am not sure how long I can wait just to soak, I like to wash my feet & massage them there real good!
I am not HALTing that much today so far either! I would like a nice sandwich, though. I am not angry lonely or as tired as i have been. I just wish I would make more sense when I try to get "it" all out! To you all I can make sense because I can backspace every time I start to slip. I am not afraid of going backwards if you know what I mean! I really want to go forward, though. Thanks to alanon I have let go some of my past & am not willing to step into the future at least not except in a timely fashion!
I am glad there are those of you who can translate the lingo in this wonderful fellowship. I forget that not everyone knows all the slogans like One day at at time, First things first, keep it simple, etc.
I have my sponsor to guide me, she is just a cell phone call away! I am planning to call her before she heads from CA to Texas. I know she won't mind because she gave me her number again! I can't seem to keep track of it! What a space cadet! I say that lightly, I am not serious. So, my memory is going. I can still dial a number, though.
The reason why I am saying all this is because of all of you! I am grateful, I have some serenity & I do have a sponsor! Some peope don't have anything but hope. That I do have. Where there is life I feel there is hope.
So hang in there, and pray, if you can. Don't forget that there is always someone listening! Even if you can''t go to many F2F meetings, you, have all of us! We are hear to listen to anything your heart desires to put on this wonderful site! Sometimes we can listen with our eyes. Does that make sense?
By the way, my AH is still sober, ODAT, for that I am more than grateful. I just wish he would quit smoking but that is another issue. There is a 12 step program for that too. But this is an alanon site. I hope that he will just take one thing at a time like I do.
(((((Kathleen)))))...I've listened with my eyes for years. It is what works best for me. Hope you get able to drop your alcoholic and whom ever else you are compelled to carry and just pick up one deserving person...yourself. (((((hugs)))))
