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It is still rough, but I am pulling through the no sleep, crying period! I really do need to remember to be grateful & not so damn pissed off! I just need a break & it seems like every time I do, another issue disturbs my sleep. I was really pissed off this morning! Now that I am sitting here @ this computer, I can see the light of day.
I know that there are those of you that struggle with the same stuff I do & that gives me comfort even though I would not like to see any of us struggle.
I took some deep breaths this morning earlier--way earlier--and that seemed to help!
By the way, my sponsor is down south from me & then she will be in San Antonio for the AA convention there--the national one in July. I can call her or email her today so I think I will. I do have other friends in the program that I have been keeping in touch with so I am able to call them when I need them.
It is time to take action & get the cobwebs out of my mind & let go of the past! Actually yesterday I was listening to 80's music. That is my era of music as like I said I am almost 44! Anyhow, to the point, I was very nostagic & reminscing about the past: big mistake but comforting @ the same time! So, I got in my head with good & bad memories! It was not as bad as it could have been but I felt somewhat better too. It is strange how the past music we listened to when we were younger is what makes us go back in time & remember how it was so vividly!
My life is so different than it used to be when I was young, but sometimes I feel stuck! I guess that is part of who I am but not who I am totally anymore!
Maturity helps. I guess wisdom does too. I am so glad that I don't have to live in the past even though sometimes I have to remember it!
Now I am feeling better. Thanks for all the comments. I appreciate any feedback I get!
(((((KDC)))))...Never met an oak tree I didn't love and have met some I was older than. I choose to dance with the good old times and just smile at the bad ones. Wanna dance or just smile?
Your a youngen,tell us , what is bothering you, you need to get it out whatever it is. Why are you crying so much???
Isnt it a bitch, no matter how we want to stay where we are and think about yesterday, the sun goes down an the moon comes out and the stars and another day has ended and there is nothing we can do about it. Seems like the sun and the moon and the stars all know what they have to do, but sometimes we get lost.
I say move anyway, put your feet on the floor and move and the body and mind will follow. Dont give up Kathleen, it will get better . Keep coming back!! Hugs!!!!!! Bettina
