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Why I need my meetings....part 2.......The Prodigal Returns.....
So I was just heading to bed Wed night when I heard the kitchen door open and a hushed discussion ensue between husb & a voice I havent heard for many months, the son I love with all my heart.....
I stayed calm............a miracle of this programme, without a shadow of a doubt.
He has asked to stay at home while he waits for a detox place.....(hopefully within the next week).
Sadly his disease is so advanced that to be without alcohol now could kill him as his seizures are frequent. Our family doctor has prescribed x units of alcohol a day until he gets into rehab, home detox is now dangerous to him, so our boundary of him not drinking in our home is dropped. He asked if we would monitor the units and we are.
He has had the courage to remove himself from the toxic environment hes been in for months....probably instigated by the threat of jail ( another previous post) but Im of the opinion that if someone asks for help I will give it, no matter how many times they ask, its what they do with that help thats out of my control. He is home odat, with new boundaries in place. The disease is cunning baffling and powerful, both for him and us as a family.....he could disappear anytime on a binge... he has become a slick thief, beggar and liar, therefore consequences are also in place.
Hes a lovely, gentle, sick guy and this disease is a killer..... I hate it with all my heart.
I see a distinct difference in him.....has he had enough?.....only he knows. I know right now he doesn't want to drink but has to, he is consuming the minimum he can get away with......too little as it turned out yesterday, he had a bit of a turn and we upped the units to stabalise him...... His fear is palpable.
