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My life is very challenging at the moment. My finances are poor, I have a lot of obstacles in my way whatever way I turn, second job, bills, and more bills..... Normally I would be totally submerged in self pity, catastrophe and depression. Now I am working the program I have to let so much that is out of my control go. Yesterday I was delayed on my train for 2 hours, normally I would have a long rant about that. My lights fused in the middle of the night and the cat decided that was a cue to demand her food. So much for she has a biological clock, when I get up its time for food that's all she cares about! I've spent many a month frustrated, lonely, confused, desperate and fearful.
As I turn all this over I no longer feel the gut wrenching fear and trepidation, I feel like I have control rather than my life is spiinning out of control and how can I get help.
I really have no idea how I will get beyond the obstacles in front of me, finances, home, resources. I do know the old way of catastrophizing didn't help one bit.
Hi, When I am working my programme well (which is not all the )I am communicating with Hp I too feel like even the big problems can be over come. I think the longer I am in this programme and the greater my faith becomes , the better I ca handle theses situations. Sounds to me that although you do have problems you also have a HP you trust.
Aloha Maresie ((((((hugs)))))) You have such a huge recovering family standing with you. You are not alone. As for not knowing what to do? I learned that most of the time I wasn't suppose to know and was to practice, prayer, meditation and keeping an open mind. Patience and an open mind for me allows me to see the miracles and then I can act on it. Yay for you doing what is necessary to reverse the process (amends) and arrive at a better solution. I have two small dogs like your cat. "Feed me" is the replacement for "Good Morning". LOL
thank you for your feedback. I must admit it is challenging to go from victim to survivor but I feel like I am on my way. It is incredibly hard work but I no longer feel paralyzed, obsessed and depressed.
I have seen you come thru so very much keep working it girl.....you will be just fine....you are a survivor....hey when my clock goes off i have to feed me to...lol....
