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I am having a bad day and noone to talk to. I know these days pass and I'm feeling sorry for myself. Everything I think about today seems to be negative. There are issues that didn't just start bothering me today but I guess I'm just overwhelmed with all the negative right now.
One of those black and white thinking days I guess.
Those days can sneak up on all of us. I have found that if I journal my thoughts on days like this I am released from the negative emotions. The chat room helps also You are not alone
My bad day was yesterday. Today, I got myself to a meeting. During the meeting, I realized it's been a week since my last meeting, which is really not good for me. I didn't reach out either, didn't think of it since my sponsor is away on vacation. So, when things didn't go well yesterday, I was not spiritually fit for any of it! I was full of fear and anxiety, very irritable, and everyone was on my hit list!! By evening, I was at such a low, it reminded me of early recovery.
Lesson for me, I gotta stick with what works. My attention to my recovery is like building a wall of protection around me, like a fortress... and I have to stand guard, or the disease will attack when i am weak. That's what happened.
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
We all know those kind of days. Some days I'm just in a bad/negative mood and NOTHING is gonna change that. We also know that those days will pass. This is life on life's terms. I just try and go with it, keeping my eye on the bigger picture. That tomorrow is a new day and we get to begin again. All will be well. Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
We all have those "bad days", and you are entitled.... :)
How's this for a perspective on gratitude.... Your post reminded me of one I posted a couple of years ago, when an alcoholic/addict friend of mine tried to explain the difference between him (addict) and me (al-anon).
His words..... "when you (al-anon) have a bad day, you know it's a bad day, and that tomorrow will likely be better..... when I (addict) have a bad day, it feels like the world is closing in on me from every direction, and it will never get better"
That one brings it back into perspective for me - be grateful that you can have these feelings, and it's all part of life, and our recovery...
Take care Tom
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"He is either gonna drink, or he won't.... what are YOU gonna do?"
"What you think of me is none of my business"
"If you knew the answer to what you are worrying about, would it REALLY change anything?"
