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Monday the 26th is the surgery on my shoulder.The tendon is torn away from the bone. Talking major stuff, drills, pins, screws....This is when I am in trouble. I can hold back the big gut pain of the lonliness and actually been lots better. But this brings me too far down.
I woke up last time in tears and out of control. I do not want to do that again.
A's can be very violent, an A with brain damage who woke up mean is worse.
years ago.....The almost ex AH got mad as I was trying to stop him from hurting a dog, nothing big, he was kneeled down and I pulled him lightly on the back of his sweatshirt, I am not violent. Told him do not take your stuff out on the dog. He had gone his pasty white and was insane. He apparently got up and flipped me. I landed face down my shoulders hurting badly.
So had to deal with it for years now. Well now i fell and made it impossible to live with.
Not sure how to get to the hospital and back. My son is working in another city, just went back to work, leadman for a construction/remodel co. Besides he is so stressed, if I talk to him or more listen I will feel worse.
I know my hp is always there, so I do know it will be ok. It is more, its hard right now to prepare. washer and dryer are broke...gads. no money to fix until the 28th. everything is dirty. BUT at least I can do it the 28th (o:
I am heading to the laundrymat which is a feat in itself as this pain is really awful. never take pain pills except at night sometimes. I work hard thru the pain. This is not work thru kind. so lifting and all will be interesting.
Gotta have things clean uno? especially when I will be down. Gotta figure out how to make the dogs kennel area outside the door cat proof, chicken proof too! Need to be able to leave the door open to it. I cannot get up and let the ankle biters out ever hour or so. Big dogs are ez.
Gotta put my raised beds together at least. recovery is a long time, months.
I am sure you guys know when ya are hurt physically or sick, things hit ya harder.
I am blessed with my adoptive moms, now deceased, (she became my mom after I lost my real mother in 2000)her husband is who I talk to. you know the real down deep talk. and the well just talk!
He is not well and will not admit it. He is only 70! So I am going to have to fly or train to him right after surgery to fill his house with food ez to make. Find a doc who won't give up or one with brains. squeaky wheel.
I have watched him go down for months now. Losing mom has made it so hard on him. Mom asked me to take care of him. He is a great guy, worked hard, smart. However if you have ever lost a loved spouse to death then you know how hard it is to want to keep going.
I dont' know what I would do without this site, meaning all of you. You guys probably know me better than most people! And you tell me when I am a poop, wrong, whatever. I need that.
My computer has some thing on it i gotta take it in again. some personal security icky thing. I thought avg stopped that? rrrrI HATE it when my computer down loads stuff at night!
wish I could just leave Elgin and Peaches horses tied to a little cart thing outside the hospital to bring me home....
(((((((((debilyn))))))))), Oh sweet lady. I am sure it will all work out. HP is really good at working out the seemingly impossible stuff in a way that is so smooth I often wonder why I worried at all.
I hope the surgery goes smoothly and that your pc is fixed soon so your family can support you.
Yours in recovery, Mandy
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Awww ... I dislocated my shoulder once and it hurt soooooooooo horribly bad. I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I hope the surgery goes well and that you will be feeling much better afterwards.
I'm sorry you've been suffering so much pain! I'd never have guessed, you always seem so cheery and upbeat on here.
You'll be in my thoughts. I hope all goes well, and that you'll be pain-free afterward! (((hugs)))
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Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could... Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. - Emerson
I am so sorry you are enduring this pain. You are fight this MIP family is the BEST!!! and coming here is a very wise more,.
Please come here often and let us know how you are doing. I do wish that Elgin and Peaches and your little cart could be there waiting to take you home.
I will include you in my morning and evening prayers.
Don't know why but I am so dang tired! Today I gotta put my raised beds together, and fix the dog door to the kennel and put a lid on the kennel to keep the vermin out. That would be chickens and cats! (o:
I am usually happy to a point. So much around me to make me so uno? as far as pain. Honestly it usually does not get me down. Some people don't have joints at all!
This pain is hard to get away from. BUT I keep doing it!
Plus the animals and people make me laugh. Laughter and love are the key I find.
I am sitting in a room. I look out to the hall, my parrot Reeba, a yellow head amazon, runs down the hall, 5 ankle biters run after her, scuffle HELP HELP!!!
then the puppies are running the other way, reeba is chasing them laughing!
Then she runs back away and the pups are after her, scuffle! HELP HELP!!
Laughter, bird screams, ! running puppies go by and there is Reeba on the last pups back screaming and laughing!!!
I am NOT kidding. oh for a video camera in my eyes!
so how can I not be ok???
Then I go outside to feed and things happen most would not believe. There were more reasons than we realize that the creator made animals.
I wish you a quick recovery. It'll be better before you know it. Thank goodness for our animals. My kitties make me laugh too. I couldn't imagine living without them.
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