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Got tired of being taken advantage of. Usually I take it and stew then let it go. It is scarey for me to go to court alone especially.
Tenats as usual did not pay their last months rent. They had a security deposit, not a rent deposit.
I would have let it go had they been nice when they left. But they lied and I had to get a restraining order on the woman.
I hate this. I believe after all the damage of living with the almost ex AH, there are some things that just are not healing.
When i hugged my horse Elgen yesterday, I felt such deep love and protection from him. He would get me thru a battlefield. Instead of feeing warm and fuzzy I felt this awful pain.
Then I thought about how I do the same thing when my kids hug me.When ever I feel that deep love, it kills me.
Some of you know I am in pain all the time. I cope pretty darn well by keeping busy, working hard. But my shoulder is torn, so itis worse.
So with the emotiohal pain, the physical pain I can be close to tears even though I am smiling.
I read it may take all morning It's a court ordered mediation. I can barely sit for thirty min. at a time.
Just is fact, not complaining. Life gives ya what it does.moment at a time I guess.
One thing about A's is the taking advantage is endless. MY experience.I am very mellow and layed back. Well unless someone reallly pushes me then I feel awfu for my response!
So anyway I hipe I don't cry. I have no desire to! gotta remember it is business right? not personal?
ug, three am as usual, gotta try to sleep. But my very very old potted pig, Oscar is wondering around. He is a stick pig. goofy thing. Very healthy, just old. He falls and cannot get up. So I am always righting him....He has a huge feather blanket, I pray he does not shred, but gets up to check if ANY food has fallen from the sky whilst he slept.
As Mandy said, I can't imaginr doing anything bad to my landlord or her property. I am too grateful to have found a place and someone who accepts the moostiff living with me. I don't think I will ever leave this little house LOL
If you need to cry you go right ahead and cry. Sometimes that is the only way to release those emotional and physical pains.
I am way late but am hopeful that court went well!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Thank you for responding you guys. I just reread my post. Could ya tell I did not have my glasses on....?
Meant a lot to me to read what ya'll said.
It is interesting how most tenants are not good people. But the ones that are good are the best!
I even allow pets, let them make rent arrangements if they need to! I was a good tenant when I rented.
Would not mind renting now but I would not feel secure.
The judge asked who would go talk with a mediator. I said yes. The tenants said no. sigh.I was ready to work with them. Now I won't. Will stick to the facts, I have witnesses.
Then I have to figure out how to get the money once they have a judgement against them.
He is an A, she is the biggest enabler I have ever seen. He is more like her kid than husband. Both have jobs.
My little black Poodle, Happy got very sick last night. Blood coming from both ends. Barfing everywhere and the d. problem. So awful. I got back as soon as I could. Cleaned up the house. Took his temp. 98.4 That is bad. So put him on my water flow heating/cooling pad. He is acting like he always does. Not lethargic. Anyway had him take chicken broth with egg yolk, that stayed down. Then plain youghurt with multi enzymes..stayed down!
She then ate canned chicken! Then he ate chicken and rice... so his temp is up. hopefully he is on the mend.
Al Anon taught me to not panic as much when someone is sick. I immediately thought Happy is going to die. But then it switches to , put it in hp's hands.
You guys being there for me means so much to me. This being physically alone is the pits sometimes. It does make a huge difference to have your support and love.
When I am this upset I cannot even think the right stuff. All the stuff I might share with someone else goes out the window.So what you say works.
So now a court date will be mailed to me. Could be three months away. I don't mind. Not in it for the money. Doing it for me, u no?
I have said it for years. Need a break, to go and just rest not have to think about anything. let go,breath.Be somewhere warm and safe. or somewhere very rainie windy and stormy and safe.
Its hard to feel safe when a person is so isolated, alone. I sleep with a nine m. right on my bed stand. One night some thing was not right. It ended up ok. but it was a good experience to see how I did not panic and could protect my home and animals.
Have not gotten the papers back from almost ex ah yet. Want to get it over with. Glad I don't have to wait 90 days.
