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SOMETIMES I FEEL SO SORRY FOR MYSELF FOR THE DECISIONS I MADE IN THE PAST. TODAY I HAD I BAD DAY! I GOT A NAP LIKE I HAD PLANNED BUT STILL FELT AWFUL. I BARKED AT MY HUSBAND. I COMPLAINED ABOUT AA & ALL THE SITUATIONS HE GETS INTO. I BASICALLY GOT INTO HIS BUSINESS & FOR ONCE IT WASN'T ALL ABOUT ME!
AT LEAST HE IS IN AA! I SHOULD BE GRATEFUL, RIGHT? BUT NOW HE IS GETTING TOO INVOLVED & IT IS REALLY BOTHERING ME TODAY! I GUESS EVERYTHING IS BOTHERING ME! SO, SOME OF YOU DON'T HAVE WHAT I HAVE. A SOBER ALCOHOLIC IN MY LIFE FOR 3 !/2 YEARS! THERE AGAIN, I SHOULD BE GRATEFUL!
SORRY FOR ALL THE CAPS! IT LOOKS LIKE I AM MORE ANGRY THAN I AM. SO TIRED THAT I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM GOING WITH THIS & WHY I AM ON THIS SITE. I GUESS IT IS BECAUSE YOU ALL HELP ME SEE WHAT I DON'T SEE.
FORGIVE ME FOR BEING SO AWFUL! I AM NOT GOING TO SAY THAT I AM STUPID ONE MORE TIME TODAY!
Nanny may I suggest that after the gratitude list you take a rip at a 10th step;
"Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it" and find out what you're really POed about. Probably about something you ain't or haven't done for yourself and putting off because your focus is on the alcoholic. Maybe an old resentment trying to find its way back home into your head or already there and mucking around thru the guilt and shame. I do the inventory myself cause when I don't I can make myself the target for all kinds of negative stuff.
Keep coming back. In support. Giving a toot to help the Hoot. (((hugs)))
