Been a while since I have been on here.  Just wanted to give an update.  Still working, still going to school and looking forward to summer.  My ex AH is back in jail and calling me collect on my cell phone 2 or 3 times a day.  ANNOYING.  I guess because I let him stay for a few months he took that as he has a chance again.  I would really like to figure out a way to stop the calls.  Most of the time I just mute the ringer.  I am working on losing more weight, working on quitting smoking, working on being involved with men without becoming obsessed or wrapped up in them and their lives and problems.  An exercise in detachment with which I am expirimenting.  I feel pretty good about things now, hopeful, like I'm moving in a positive direction most of the time.  Trying to work out issues with my kids, trying to be a better mom and focus on them when I'm with them.  I feel like I'm at a turning point where my life is about to suddenly have great improvement but I'm not really sure how.  I have had 10 days in a row with no sleeping in either working or going to school and tomorrow is my first day off in 10.  I'm going out with friends on weekends, when I have school and hanging with the kids on weekends when I don't and I feel like I have finally found some balance in my life.  I think studying counsleing helps me to be more reflective of my own self and is giving me tons of new skills that I really need in my own life not just in my career.

So that's me, things look good right now.  Hard to imagine where I was 4 years ago when I first came here scared, alone, not a friend in the world, just left my husband with 3 kids in tow and now I am the same but I'm not.  I have grown up SO much in the past four years but it has given me the inner strength to know that I can do ANYTHING!